I don't know why but I feel lonely. Like something missing. I think its over with you know who for good now.....I had been talking to HER for awhile on a kinda like friendship baises....I would talk to her about kirsten and let her tell me what was going on. Basically trying to be a shoulder and also someone that she could trust and see that i ( Read more... )

Hey everyone sorry I haven't updated this in a few days (not that anyone reads this shit anymore) Ummmmmmm My hard-disk on my computer crashed about a week ago, I thought it was a virus but nope, just the hard disk failed so my comptuer is getting picked up Monday or Tuesday for repair which is gonna take a little longer than a week. but for the ( Read more... )

Here we go again....didn't I JUST say that this would happen soon? Happened a lot sooner then I thought It would. This is getting ridiculous, HA getting?!---- HAS BEEN.

"So when I do get hurt again I have no one to blame but myself....I really mean that because I know that its going to happen again." -last post

I just tried to tell myself that I ( Read more... )

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I hate how easily I fall in love. Its so stupid....I fall in love with a girl that shows me the littlest bit of attention....I make myself WAY to available....I wear my heart on my sleeve way to much. I am just asking to be hurt constantly....Why can't I just be okay with being single? I keep looking and they say when you look you never find ( Read more... )

I ended up talking to Amanda on Tuesday night....I had a HORRIBLE night...I was at school and I decided I wanted to go to Carls Jr. to get something junkie for my body and So I left right before my very last class of the night (it was about 6:30....It was dark outside very cold and raining like hell but I was hungry as shit....So I left Got in my ( Read more... )

I told Amanda yesterday morning that I think It would be a good idea if she and i didn't talk until she made up her mind about what she wanted in her life....Basically a relationship with Kirsten or one with me. She told me that she understood, then I said well I better get going for work and she said "what time do you get off" and I said "why" ( Read more... )

I made a new live journal name

Its :

beautiful_hart

I'm making it friends only.....Because I don't know who reads this or if there are people that I know in personal life that read it that I probably shouldn't have reading it.....the new journal will just be a place where I can express my feelings (what I really feel) and not sugar coat it for the fear of ( Read more... )

god give me strength......

My *girlfriend* is soooo cute!!!! Well We are dating anyways.  I want to call her my gf but we both want to be sure that we want to be with eachother before making any commitments....Her more then me....She doesn't want to get hurt I think....She said that she is trying to be careful with her heart because of the past.  And I definatly understand ( Read more... )