So yeah i broke the rule for november but i couldnt help it. I just felt like i wasnt good enough for ne thing, people expect so much of me, but when i can only give them my best, they think thats not good enough ( Read more... )

i dont know what it is, but to not know what u want is crazy. i thought i knew who i loved, but i dont i have stopped loving the person i was in luv with for 3 1/2 yrs. its crazy.

So yeah this week was Andress Homecoming, yeah i went to the lighting of the A, then after wards Julian almost broke his arm at Dairy Queen, lol, Then on friday i got this HUGE mum that made me feel really special, aww but it made me feel bad,cause i think my babe wasted alot of money on me, and then i went to the Homecoming Game it was good. Then ( Read more... )

WEll as all of u know about me and becca, cause u all met my babe aka lumpy. Its great. Oh yeah to mel i wish i could make u smile again. So yeah to all some important news, i will be turning 18 on tuesday. YAY!!!!!!!!!! so yeah. And probably wat usually is the celebration will occur. Applebees then movies, much love to all

Well it took me 4 yrs to have gotten over that hill, that we all know. I found this really GREAT, and I do mean GREAT girl, she is so sweet to me, she is in this words to good to be true. She treats me like #1 not # 12 on someones list.I dont know i really like being in her arms, she smells so GOOD. ay and i like her kisses, she just in general ( Read more... )

Im sick i blame Julian cause on friday, he was a sick and i forgo and i shfred his drink, stupid me. On other news, im so fukin pissed off at Ash, she keeps insulting me, i can onlhy take so much before i cant take it anymore, YEAH I KNOW I FUCKED UP, BUT U KNOW WHAT IF MEL FORGAVE ME SHE SHOULD TOO. I cant change who i Love, or care for, and right ( Read more... )

I have proven myself that as i get older i get stupider(dont think thats even a word.) I have been stupid enough to talk to her again, and i did, but hey its all good. The 1st week of school suked,too confused about what i feel, so i have just given up.

Today was ok, So far ive dyed my hair i like it, then today i went to go visit ashley and Bronzay. We went to Mc Kelligon canyon it brought some good memories but i got sad, cause I was thinking about my first rollecoaster ride, i thought maybe if i go back then i could heal, but no i cant it was worse. But on the plus side i got all my memories ( Read more... )

I had another breakdown but this time it was out of the blue i just looked at myself in the mirror and i just started to bawl, i called mel, but at that moment she was busy.So she told me to call Melissa, I called she was preoccupied I think working, then I got a call from Ashley, by the way she's back in El Paso. She thought I was sleeping, but I ( Read more... )

Splendor in the grass.. is one of the best things ive ever seen, or heard. I think i relate to the girl in the movie, in the end she became a stronger person, i hope one day i can say i am a stronger person becasue of what you did to me. I cant hate those that i love even though i try. I finally talked to mel, which is great cause i miss one of my ( Read more... )