wow...

[rainbowrider18]

does it ever get any easier? will this pain that i feel ever go away? this day was sucky also.. had to clean my apartment last night and de-flea it...it is still not de-fleaed, should be by tomorrow or the next day the landlord said. man, he is such a fucking prick... he was all like i saw you getting rid of the cats, i was like do you have it on

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Relax

[anonymous]

Sorry, that I haven't chatted with you theses past few days, as I have been so busy with life in general. Sounds like your having it rough! I am sorry to hear that your landlord is such a jerk, landlords are far too over rated anyway.
If you dont mind me asking whom is messing with your mind(as you stated in your journal)? I hope that I am not giving you the impression that I am messing with your head, as this is far from my intentions, I am just trying to lend a frindly ear for a young lady whom seems to be having life a little rough right now. No harm intended!..........
AS for excitement- maybe you are trying too hard to make things happen to quickly, it takes time for things to fall in place. If you rush into things too quickly things may not turn out as you wish for them to, it could turn out the oppiste of you want.
Who knows maybe your Don Juan, exists somewhere out there; however only time will tell. Take Care..............

Re: Relax

[rainbowrider18]

lol no you were not messing with my mind. it was this guy that i've been talking to. he's the opposite of what most guys are so it seems. i can't seem to figure him out.he likes to listen to what i have to say and doesn't try to make moves on me a lot. and that confused me, cause i'm used to crazy nympho shit and that was like the basis for our relationship. you can't have a relationship based on sex, it just won't work. you should be friends first and then see where things go. thas what we're doing right now. we've been spending a lot of time together, yet, i can't get the ex out of my head. he left such an imression in my mind that i don't think i will ever be able to go without thinking of him and what he is doing. once you fall, i mean really fall, you never get all the way back up. you might to a point, but never fully. i don't really know what i want. i think i want a relationship , but if i did, would that make me happy? would it truly be what i want? no. and the poor guy prolly knows this and hopes that he is not a rebound. i