I hate words... you can lie through words... i look back, on letters, on notes, on cards, on random pieces of paper saying i love you, or hearts or i miss yous. its sad. i mean why do i belive it, when i know their only words. i mean i keep looking at them, when i read them they meant so much to me. WHY??? i look at them now and all i feel is anger ( Read more... )

so I met brittany... i really like brittany... i like her more each time i see her, i like her more every minuite i spend with her. shes absolutly gorgeous, and shes so nice, even when she shouldnt be. we really get along, and sunday she came over to jo jos. its was interesting, we ended up kinda play wrestling with the dog, and it ended up leaving ( Read more... )

so my friends have so kindly taken the liberty of putting me back on the market ( Read more... )

fuck man... the nerve of some fucking people really blows my mind.. but thats ok becuase they feed me what i need......... anger.... so fuck them... fuck women.. there stupid...

im sorry i have been so diffrent lately... im sorry youve had to see me the way some of you have seen me. i feel so lost... so empty. i think that im just so fucking stressed that im not able to function correctly. and its not all on ashley either... im just stressed about school, my family life isnt all that hot right now. and this shit going on ( Read more... )

so i finnally went to bed last night i slept pretty well... and umm lets see around 8:30 in the morning my fucking phone goes off... its the alarm on my phone and ohhh hmmm what could it have possibly said... BECKY AND ASHLEYS ONE MONTH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I FUCKING SCREAMED FUCK YOU AND THREW MY PHONE... i ( Read more... )

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Jenny is your soulmate.
You truly love Ashley.
You consider Kami your true friend.
You know that Anna is always thinking of you.
You'll remember for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Jo Jo is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Miranda is colorful, impulsive ( Read more... )

so yesterday i was to say the least numb, numb to everyfeeling that i knew would eventually come. i knew what was going on... i knew the feelings i should of been feeling... but i felt nothing... i could not feel the pain, i knew it was there but it was like i was on 1000 miligrams of morphine. it was ok i geuss.. i just couldnt come to terms with ( Read more... )

You Oughta Know ( Read more... )

well today was umm an interesting day to say the least... i hung out with anna and brandi. my trip to new york wasnt as fun as i thought it would be... i geuss that i realized that my true friends are here and there are not many that are still close to me there... but i did go out to the club with my friend kristen and i saw a lot of people from my ( Read more... )