Life is really wonderful right now!  I mean, it's awesome.  I am happier than I have been in a long time...maybe the happiest I've been since I've been at college.  It's weird.  It's like I've found something that I really enjoy doing.  I really really like running rehearsals and fixing things.  I get this weird high off of conducting and hearing ( Read more... )

I just got in a fight with my mom on the phone because she overheard me jokingly talking to my sister on the phone and calling her the "black sheep" of the family (this was over a week ago).  My mom told me that I should not have said that because it makes her feel like she is the black sheep and thus has a negative impact on her and causes her to ( Read more... )

Every  spring I get really lonely and preoccupied with boys and sex.  Right now is no exception.  It's a problem ( Read more... )

This is kinda late, but for Lent I am ( Read more... )

Out of no where, today I realized as I drove home how incredible blessed I am.  I have parents in my life who have always supported me.  I've usually had friends that I can count on, and who will listen to me when I need it the most.  I've built myself up from nothing into something that I am proud of (relatively) and my parents and friends are ( Read more... )

So my birthday was yesterday! It was fun. I played in Garcia's recital and it went well. Our ensemble sounded really good and I was really happy to get to play with such great musicians (Kathleen and Madeline and Aimee Bayles!) Garcia even made the audience sing happy birthday to me (I was tickled). After that my parents took Kathleen and I to ( Read more... )

Make no mistake, the entire purpose of this entry is to get me out of this slump of teaching elementary school kids. I absolutely do not like it and I cannot even describe to you how much strength it takes me to get up every morning and drag myself in there to face them. I never thought it would be this bad. I am in really really desperate need ( Read more... )

So any thoughts that I had about wanting to go to school somewhere where it gets real cold have pretty much been vanquished by the weather in Chicago. It was never above 11 degrees when I visited this weekend, and the winds made it feel like it was below 0. I was shocked back into reality. And never have I been to a place where walking down the ( Read more... )

It's kind of scary when you realize that you have entered into a new phase of your life. I think it's even more scary when it hits you all at once, and the transition isn't really a transition, but more of a violent shove into the real world. I'm mostly in the real world now, and it scared the hell out of me. This week has been the after-shock ( Read more... )

I just realized I've been kind of a bitch in my journal. Apologies to everyone.

Hope everyone has a good first week of school and auditions and such...good luck!