so... true story I had never loved a girl until my most recent ex... ever... we were together a year... not even my longest relationship... but I truly love her... not even past tense... this is the reason for the depression... one girl... I hate to say it but my first love... me... I dont just love girls... but this one stole my heart... I cant ( Read more... )

Denver is three weeks away... this is it... Ive been talking about if for years... and Im finally doing it... A new home... A new school... A new job... A new life... And fuck you to everyone that made me think that they were worth stayin in El Paso for... Fuck this place... Denver is big... many people... I can dissapear... Maybe there is a girl ( Read more... )

I had a wicked good weekend... Friday was awesome good friends at my house and beer... the SATURDAY!!!!!... I got dumped... grrrrrr... but all is well cause I went and saw MOTLEY FUCKING CRUE... it was wicked rad wicked wicked rad... then horr bar saw jerm and hung out with jax and karen... then taco cabana... with jax karen and mike... hes a cool ( Read more... )

I need to run away... ha... I had a great night last night... people came to see me... and brought me presents yes!!! I have heartburn noooo!!! So cesi-monster bought me sixteen candles... That makes me very happy... and Val bought me a cd I already had but its ok cause its the thought that counts and thats a really good cd... My val bought me ( Read more... )

It looks like this year is going to be better than the last... but everyone one is moving around or leaving and it scares me... but fuck... Im happy the first 15 minutes of my 20th birthday were awesome I got my first happy birthday from a very beautiful girl laying next to me... then 5 minutes later I got one over the phone from a very wonderful ( Read more... )

An hour with Val is an hour well spent... Monday is my birthday... Ill be 20... yeah whatever... if anyone wants to go Ill be at Players playing pool for the league on monday night... yeah all is well

I have come to the conclusion that I am very bitter twoard women... it has alot to do with how I get very attached very easily... Andrew is gone so is Chris and their mom... moved away... ugh... Im sad ... and frustrated with women and boring history classes... and I love history... maybe I should say boring old men that talk slow and such... but ( Read more... )

so I guess I should be happy for you getting married and all... thats what you always wanted... ha... I would reply to that message but youdeleted it... lame... and its better I just put the past away... I learned alot from you though ... thank you for that ( Read more... )

so... I typed a long update last night but it didnt update !!! but all is well and nothing matters right now... cause I kissed a girl... and she makes me happy... and shes going somewhere in life and... happy...

Today... I did not go to warped tour... Rich backed out monday night and I didnt wanna go or try to tag along with someone else... Im sad I missed it... but on a happy note my car is really really clean I mean cleannnnn... if you know me very well you know my car is never clean ever... Ive had this car for a yearand a half and this was only the ( Read more... )