Sad....cuz i was kinda hoping to bribe my bf to come see me...but he dont want me to spend $500 on a ticket... he wanted me to find cheaper tickets and then he can take PTO and stay longer. But meh. Looking at the prices. Its only cheap jan/ feb and goes right back up... so ( Read more... )

In these days leading up to my departure.... I am saddened. I am going to miss my love. I know deep down that WE will be okay. We got each other thru everything and we will make it. We have been thick as thieves for going on 24 years now. We locked in. That IS my better half. He is My person... But i am going to miss having him next to me. Spending ( Read more... )

I am excited for the next steps in my life. I'm moving back into my own space. This makes me happiest the most... even if I am unsure of what the new house looks like on the inside. I haven't gotten updated pics and the pics on google are from before the house was "fixed" to living conditions... But i am confident if other people were just living ( Read more... )

I’ve hit a bit of a plateau. Im happy! Happiest i have ever been in my life…. Yet so confused m. So scared. So self doubtful. But i guess thats just the road…

I'm staying positive. I had my appointment at Amazon yesterday. That went well i suppose. I got my badge picture taken and took my drug test. ill hear back when my drug test and background check come back... I am going to get this job.. I'm just putting that out there. I'm going to get this job. i need this.... So i can start not being in debt. i ( Read more... )

I am a lot better today than what i was yesterday. i found my Social! So i was able to reschedule my interview at Amazon for Sunday! 

Welp.... I ended up not making it to my interview today because i was unable to find my social.... I swear... I'm tired of being strong. I'm tired of waking up every fucking day. i. want. to die. Every Day is a struggle. Every. Fucking Day..... All my life has been a fucking struggle and i'm SO Tired of being "Strong" WTF is strong?

WHY THE FUCK ( Read more... )

Good Morning,

I am happy that no one uses this thing anymore. I can vent without people being all in my shit. I love it. Crazy how this use to be super popular. ha i remember people were trying to get codes so they could make one. back then you had to have a code to be able to make one.

I have my interview tomorrow. fingers crossed i hope it goes ( Read more... )

Good Morning,

There's always a beginning. The question is where is your beginning? What am i going to allow to define me? I don't need someone else to give me meaning. I am amazing... i make my own future.. I'm always looking for acceptance because i never received it as a child. So I ended up lacking and trying to make up for it as an adult. But ( Read more... )

Good Morning,

Wow, its been forever since I've been on here but.....

I will try and put effort to have a presence on here. have a safe place to vent without judgement was very beneficial to me..... and i really do be needing to vent.

So lets see.... Where am  I today?

I have 4 kids. 3 boys and 1 beautiful girl. My princess Autumn. I love her so ( Read more... )