Something really weird is happening to me and I don't know how to explain it or what I can do about it. I have not been able to or wanted to sleep in the last three days. I have been up for more than 72 hours. I have all the energy I normally do but I think that I just look like I was hit by a truck. I mean I even went for a run yesterday ( Read more... )

Well last night I felt really really good. I haven't been this happy and fun since when I was back in high school. I was with Fez and Brian and we were cracking jokes and laughing really hard. It was so great. It felt like I was back in high school. I don't know why it has taken me so long to get this part of me back out but I love it. I don' ( Read more... )

I have been looking at this whole break up thing all wrong. It is not that I lose one person, but instead it is that I have a chance to give some girls the chance to be with me. Also I think many of my real friends opened my eyes as to some things that were happening that weren't exactly fair or the right thing to do. I never saw it because I ( Read more... )

You know I never thought some people would change and then they do and it is for the worst. I never thought I would see the girl I know turn into the person she is now. She is not the person I fell in love with. She is changing. I was going to wait because I still wanted to be with her. Now I don't know. I don't even know who she is. I don't ( Read more... )

Yea I can't sleep at all. I found this and it made me think of Desiree and the relationship we had ( Read more... )

If a decision is for the best then why do you feel like shit after making it?

I had to make one the worst decisions of my life tonight and I feel so sick after doing it but the alternative would have just made for more trouble. The alternative would not have worked.

I haven't updated in ages but nothing much has really be going on so I guess it doesn't matter. I have been working on alot of homework and whatnot. I went home to visit the family once this semester but it was good to go home and see them. I didn't think that my mom missed me as much as she did. My mom didn't want me to go back to school she ( Read more... )

Ok well now that I am back I have to finish what I was talking about before. I don't exactly remember what I was talking about but I will just go off on a related tangent ( Read more... )

All this talk about relationships have been making me think about relationships also. I mean even if you still have such deep feelings for someone how long am I supposed to wait? Am I not supposed to wait at all? Am I supposed to make a call based on her actions? What? I really have no idea. I mean most of my family and friends are telling me ( Read more... )

Well this has not been a good first week for me. I have spent most of the week picking up the remaining pieces of my heart and I have not handled that too well. I regret everything that I did the night after that because it was stupid and I should have known better. I just thought it would help but it made things worse and doing that was not me ( Read more... )