dressing up used to be a privilege, a special treat. I wear nothing but skirts and dresses now because the old novelty makes things better.

while folding laundry today I picked up a pillowcase and put it over my hair like a veil to amuse myself tayler and started dancing around the room with him. much to my delight, I discovered my sister was back ( Read more... )

I think it would be cool to be a Something III. girls never get the honor of carrying on the family name, and there must be such a sense of heritage behind three generations. I once decorated a large airbag with a face and a bow and named her Buddy Junioretta because there is no equivalent for girls, but she was the only female I know who carried ( Read more... )

a list of the lists I've made today:

my daily record of good things that happened today.

the people who are important to me. I figured this would make me feel better than trying to guess at those who consider me important.

grocery list. this list is boring a treasure hunt ( Read more... )

Jess: (2:58 PM) i know, you were sort of......well ya know, you're just one of a kind :)!!!

Jess: (3:12 PM) WHAT?????? hahahahahahahahahahahahaha yippie meghan, you make me happy

I've thought of the perfect career ( Read more... )

I'm happy right now. happy!

I think about you a lot. I think about many people; I wonder how they are and what they are doing, if they would rather be with me (this is not as self-indulgent as it sounds, I promise ( Read more... )

with a sudden feeling of panic:

my importances all belong to other people! must, must develop own self. can beauty really be found in appreciation alone?

I feel that by going out--by going on walks and sitting in remote places, that I'm really going somewhere. I always feel that someone will be sitting there waiting for me, someone with the same ideas and the same strange longings for something better. But I know that hilltops can be lonely places, and I know that people who do come are in twos. I ( Read more... )

to document because I know I will forget by tomorrow ( Read more... )