I know there is no way he will ever read this, but to the one person who understood me, I miss you so much. I considered you my best friend and I've never even met you. Now you won't even speak to me. I'm sorry I hurt you ( Read more... )

Haven't been doing well lately. My anti-depressants aren't working and I am either too unmotivated to go to the dr to get new ones or have too much to do and no babysitter so I can actually talk to the dr when I'm there. I am getting more and more frustrated with my kids. I being that mom that yells too much. I've developed this temper too. ( Read more... )

I cant live like this

Just gonna stand there ( Read more... )

So I am 29 today and I'v decided that I will stay 29 for a few more years ( Read more... )

sometimes I feel alone, having no friends to talk to sucks.

John has been great and understanding... but sometimes I need to talk to someone else... a non-partial "third party" so to speak.

Sometimes I just feel isolated. But I did it to myself.

Why are there so many articles/books/messages boards about how to catch a cheating spouse, how to forgive your cheating spouse, how to heal from finding out your spouse cheated?

What about the people that have betrayed their spouse? What about the grief and remorse and self hate that comes along with being the cheater?

How does the cheater get past ( Read more... )

• 18:35 I am having a rough day with the toddler. This parenting stuff is hard fucking work

• 20:19 Tonight I will sleep. I'm sleeping with prince ambien tonight :)

Ok so I am NOT sleeping well. Sunday night I got literally no sleep and last night I managed to fall asleep around 1:30am. It's not even the kids keeping me up. It's me! I am considering getting my ambien filled so I can get some sleep. I've had something strange going on with my throat and jaw. The right side of my throat/jaw is sore and is tender ( Read more... )