i'm afraid
...that i'm never going to commit to being healthy and that i will be overweight for the rest of my life.
...that that i'm not any good at the things i want to do most with my life.
...that my mom will die and i won't be able to function properly ever again.
...i'm afraid that i will settle for less than i deserve.

"Re-organizing your life once is hard enough. Now you must do it regularly. With both intense planetary activity and Mercury retrograde until the 18th, and accenting your work and lifestyle, things are moving quickly and confusion is rife. Still, things are so exciting that you just can't say no. Adopt an easygoing approach or risk exhaustion. And ( Read more... )

quite unlike me to post twice in one day. but i am feeling compelled to record how i am finding joy in the most simple things around me here. like a father re-painting his georgian door on a saturday afternoon, and the smallest little boy trying to scrape his shoes on the antique foot scraper outside his house. i don't know what it is, but lately i ( Read more... )

it's 12 pm and i am awake despite the fact that i only went to bed a few hours ago. this is going to be a taxing twelve day break, i can tell already. last night was a lot of fun filled with new faces, new places and bob ross. strange but new, and new is always exciting. i miss cory lynn topel, along with a good sized handful of others. i'll be ( Read more... )

so my entries are getting further and futher apart. i suppose this is a good thing because it means i am keeping busy and having fun, but i have to start making myself journal more so i can look back on my experiences here. Scotland was absolutely amazing. Everything was so beautiful and my tour guide, Tony, kept me laughing the entire time. It was ( Read more... )

haha so i just read my last post and giggled a bit because i never actually did end up going camping. right now i'm sitting in a hostel in Loch Ness area in the lovely country of scotland. i am spedning a weekend here basically riding around on a bus and seeing the country, laughing and taking TONS of photos. This is my favorite country over here ( Read more... )

IM GOING CAMPING, LIKE IN A TENT, THIS WEEKEND FOR THE WHOLE WEEKEND IN NORTHERN IRELAND. THIS IS A VERY BIG DEAL AND I EXPECT EVERYONE TO MAKE IT A HUGE DEAL. IM GOING TO GET EATEN BY BEARS AND I CANNOT WAIT.

I have a lot to catch up on. On the bus ride home from the airport after my London trip i met a woman named Veronica Keen. For some reason we started talking and she told me she was in Dublin for a book opening of a woman named Christine who was a medium for the dead. This somehow led to her telling me about how important her husband is and how ( Read more... )

I am currently sitting in the lobby of my hotel in london. It's been a fun weekend. Last night i met up with Josh at the motion city/ok go/matches show and i actually watched the show this time. The Matches are actually really good, their only downfall being their singer projects himself as the most image concious person on earth, and wears attire ( Read more... )

it's thursday morning and i'm skipping my classes and getting on a plane to london. i am justifying this by simply saying to myself... "when in rome." in much more important news, sunday afternoon i am going to a local booksigning with my roomates to meet david hasslehoff, life is surely looking up. xo.