i feel like an asshole for never updating. im moving soon, and i have a new friend. jesse. he plays drums for 3 metal bands and is really fucking good. his bands tour all over europe and stuff. we get along really well, and of course hes really hot... ugh of course. i met him at a show i went to with jack...

im officially a fucking cunt.

i cheated on reece last night. with alex.

you want to know what alex said to me after we were done and he wasnt kidding???

"THAT WAS MY FIRST TIME."

omfg omfg omfg.

im not going to tell reece, i dont want to break up with him i love him. i just did it bc i wanted to. god damnit.

well today is my wedding anniversary.

i officially feel like shit.

i had some really good dreams last night. i dreampt that i walked up to braydens mom and stomped her knee hella hard, and i think at one point i had cheesecake on my hands and wiped it in her hair, and then told what a bitch she was ( Read more... )

Brayden is so stupid. i myspaced him the other day and i ended up saying that things were good here and then at the very end i said "i hope things are good w you and i hope those girls at "us 101" are earning the hundreds of dollars you are spending on them, it makes me wonder what you can get for a few hundred from a whore. but thats ur decision ( Read more... )

these are a few posts, or parts of posts from each month.

january:

wow, its already 2008! today i am soooo fucking hung over its not even funny. last night josh and i went up to the neighbors and got wasted! so yeah, i found out the neighbors name is kyle. god he is so fucking hot. we talked for like 3 hours and i cannot remember anything that we ( Read more... )

i dont know if i mentioned in the last post that brayden spent 150 at the strip club last weekend.... well if so i just want to restate how rediculous he is. what is he thinking saying he will do anything to get back together with me and then does shit like this? i just dont see what his motivation is! and he still hasnt sent me my fucking medical ( Read more... )

this is the letter brayden said he wrote to his family. i told him i woldnt believe he sent it until i saw an email to me with all of their emails copied or whatever. that way i have proof he sent it.

Dear to all who read this,

As you all know who this is I assume, Im writting this letter for many reasons. First of all, I would like to ( Read more... )

 brayden told me that my boobs look more... bulbus... ok. they have been a little achey. i know sore breasts and nipples are an early sign of pregnancy, but they dont HURT hella bad like ppl explain that theirs do/did. they arent sore or tender to the touch, just sorta achey. still no period either. and i had a cramp in my right calf last night. so ( Read more... )

 i thought i would mention all that went on last night ( Read more... )