Comments | raisa_maximovna: RIP Austin

raisa_maximovna

RIP Austin

Sep 22, 2005 17:48

One of the most vibrant kids I know got hit by a truck on his bike this morning. He was killed immediately. He was sixteen or seventeen. I had him for two classes-- for a while he was the only boy in both classes. I can't believe it. There's going to be a big fucking empty seat now. Nobody's going to sit there for the rest of the year ( Read more... )

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swilkesse September 23 2005, 04:57:40 UTC

That's so awful. I'm so sorry.

we_sk8forjezzus September 23 2005, 07:22:17 UTC

I havnt stopped crying. it wont matter now but still...

raisa_maximovna September 23 2005, 12:32:30 UTC

I haven't stopped either, really.

anonymous September 26 2005, 16:40:41 UTC

"It sinks in by spurts-- I'll say "Austin was killed" to myself and it'll be real, and then I'll start thinking about Austin-- I just saw him YESTERDAY-- and he'll be so alive in my head that I'll stop believing he's dead, and then I'll think it again, killed, and he dies all over again. Just writing the words is almost unbearable."

This is still happening to me for both Janet and Jennifer. Isn't it odd that the older we get the more difficult it becomes to realize someone is gone? I have less of a grasp on death now than I did as a child.

I am so sorry. I know that I don't understand how you feel, but I imagine it is probably a lot like I felt this summer. You helped me wade through that at Trudy's, so call me if you need me.