today was stupid. my phone hasnt been working all day. if you call it goes straight to voice mail. thats lame. but i dont think anyones gonna call me anyways, besides doug. cause apparently i hurt his feelings and we're supposed to hang out. but i cant get to pleasant hill without a car.

i got bored and decided to cut my own hair. i gave myself ( Read more... )

eerrrr....im soo frustrated. i give up. i need to stop being a stupid girl and get over it. i thought i knew what i wanted to do this time. but i lied. i want things to be soo different. but i know its not gonna happen. it makes it ten times worse when he wont talk about it with me. am i that stupid and gross that you cant tell me what yer really ( Read more... )

tonight was undescribable. thats not really a bad thing. its just that i cant really describe what im feeling. but i think its a good thing. cause tonight was like old times. i liked the way that felt. but maybe that worries me. i want things to be like they used to. i really really do. but wont that be weird, like just pretending nothing happend? ( Read more... )

have you ever kissed someone:

1. (x) on the cheek.
2. (x) on the lips.
3. (x) on their hands or fingers.
4. (x) in your room.
5. (x) in their room.
6. (x) of the same sex. (on the cheek..does that count?) 
7. (x) of the opposite sex.
8. (x) younger than you.
9. (x) older than you.
10. (x) with jet black hair.
11. (x) with curly hair.
12. (x) with blonde hair & blue eyes.
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today i went on like the sexiest school trip ever. although the getting to school at 7:15 part sucked..its was worth it. me christina carol and jennifer all had fun on the bus. i was bored soo i brought my coloring book that ilenna bought me fer christmas. i colored like a billion pictures for everyone. they were heck of cool. i wrote peoples names ( Read more... )

today was a long day. san francisco trip for eriks birthday. it was fun. we walked like a billion miles today. and got stared at by like 78392785945 gross men. but that could be cause we were standing outside of sex shops. haha....my feet hurt. me and christina were way too out of shape for all that walking. she was my date for the day.

i have a ( Read more... )

i have a headache and my tummy hurts.

lastnight was interesting. epidemic was lame. we left and went to dougs practice space in concord. hung out there for a bit. kinda fun. except the heaters sucked and didnt work. bastards. me and christina had to pee way too many times and were scared of getting raped by the weird men in the hallways. heck of ( Read more... )

well..yesterday was fun. and we dont have school tomorrow. me ilenna hollie and felicia hung out. it was fun. we went to jack in the box at like 2 in the morning. it was the best jack in the box ever! and had starbucks and jamba juice. and we played life. well..kinda played. early retirement. good times. i miss us all hanging out.


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i went to the dentist today. nicoles teeth are now cleaned and polished.

this was the greatest quiz ever. cause i get dirty with craig. that has to be like the hottest thing ever!

i feel like crap. i thought this would be easier. i acted like i was fine. but i lied. im alright when i dont think about him or talk to him or see a picture. but then once one of those happens i get all teary eyed and it hurts my heart soo much. maybe im so sad over this because i know that i still have feelings for him but theres nothing i can do ( Read more... )