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[raisedinabox]

[Video opens to Jim sitting at his desk, he looks well groomed and comfortable, and opens by shooting a cheerful smile out at you] Does anyone have any recommendations for self medicating insomnia? [He holds up two small capsules so you can see them.] I've been taking Melatonin, since I'm guessing the infirmary was concerned about proscribing me

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Private, voice

[hourglass_twin]

I can mix a sleeping potion for you from the herbs in the greenhouse in exchange for a knife from the kitchen.

Private, voice

[raisedinabox]

A knife... I don't know if I'd feel comfortable giving you a weapon, because of how it could come back on me, but if I don't get any better offers then I might have to accept.

would it be possible to barter you down to something else from the kitchen? Some of the frying pans would act as pretty effective bludgeoning weapons without looking like I'd know what you wanted them for.

Private, voice

[hourglass_twin]

Unfortunately, I'm too weak to be able to put enough force behind a frying pan to do any damage, though I'd like to assure you that unless I find a way to get the the Admiral or end up alone in a room with someone I really don't like, I only want the knife for self defense.

Re: Private, voice

[raisedinabox]

Maybe. If I don't have any other choice then I'll accept this, but I'm uncomfortable because giving you something that seriously contraband will make me look really desperate.

I mean, I am really desperate, but I don't like it being obvious.

private - commence wardenly scramble.

[iam_aghost]

Jim, you shouldn't self-medicate anything.

You've clearly already discussed this with a doctor, and, I presume, wanted to avoid discussing it with me. Which frustrates me quite a bit, and I'd like to know a lot more, but I can respect your decision not to discuss medical business with your own warden. So, instead, I will ask a more appropriate question.

I'd like to discuss why you're having difficulty sleeping. I'd also like to admit I'm a little embarrassed that I hadn't noticed.

private - scribble scrabble c:

[raisedinabox]

The reason I didn't tell you was because I thought your having my file would mean you'd have figured it out the moment I mentioned it.

Edward burned my box, and I know it's ridiculous for me to be this dependent on something that probably sounds completely insignificant to everyone else, but I am entitled to have things about me that are different to other people, and at least under my former living conditions, I was dependent to something I could control.

Re: private

[iam_aghost]

I could have guessed, yes, but I would have wanted to discuss it with you, hear your reasoning. Rather than just jump to any conclusions.

Why did he burn your box?

We're all dependent on certain things, Jim, and if they're not insignificant to you, then they're not to me. Even if I did contemplate taking the box away from you, but decided against it.

private

[raisedinabox]

I'm not entirely certain. I think partly he hasn't been happy with me sleeping there since he first found out, and partly he was just having a bad day and lashed out. He can be unpredictable.

I really don't want to talk about this though, I just want some tranquilizers or something.

Private;

[raisedinabox]

That wasn't my intention, but if feeling indebted to me will contribute to you not leaving me then I'll accept it as an unexpected gain.

Private;

[raisedinabox]

...The things you say scare the hell out of me, Edward. You're not supposed to know that I love you.

[Private. Audio]

[yeerkwarveteran]

And you're put in a position of power with all of these problems?

[Private. Audio]

[raisedinabox]

No, you're thinking of the other man who looks like me, the who talks like Comrade O'Brien with learning difficulties.

Re: [Private. Audio]

[yeerkwarveteran]

I see.

But no one is helping you with your problems.

[Private. Audio]

[raisedinabox]

Oh, a few people have spoken to me, just not really saying anything helpful.

[creatingalegacy]

I don't know what you mean by "28 years of conditioning."

[raisedinabox]

I mean fifteen years of not having a choice about something, and then thirteen years where I didn't have the will or the desire to change it. A few weeks ago, it changed without me being able to stop it, and without it... I can't sleep.

[creatingalegacy]

I didn't know you were younger than me. I assumed you were older because you seem like you're in a position of power and I naturally assume those kinds of people are older than me.

How did it change?

Private

[raisedinabox]

Normally someone in my position would have been older, I was just particularly aggressive and gifted. I always thought you were a little older than me, but only because I am constantly comparing you to my mom.

Eddie burned it.