My inability to vent and the ending of my therapy are the reasons I am here. Often times, there are memes and TikToks regarding this topic, but a 15 second blurb isn't sufficient enough to really re-enforce the emotional this statement conveys:

"Who do I call when I'm at my lowest? No one. 'I am a man'," as I'm told.

There's a reason I believe ( Read more... )

Making lots more money. Having way less time. Friends still think I'm getting better, mostly because I tell them. Don't mean to be, but I'm emotionally manipulative. Still not happy. To tell the truth, I'm pretty sad at all times.

I really miss the people that truly know me. Everyone that did is gone now, the people who could cut through my ( Read more... )

Sometimes when I'm by myself, I force myself into mental exercises where I push my emotions and memories to the extremes. I imagine the worst times I've ever felt in my life. The times I screamed at the people I loved. The times I became physically violent on myself. The times I did dangerous things that risked my life. The times I hated who I was ( Read more... )

Anyone here still doing this?

Feeling introspective. Came back here. Lots has changed. Some has not.

I am not happy.

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