Being 20 youd think i would have gotten my shit together by now.
But no.

The bright side: maybe I have finally learned not to be such a fuck up.
I really do care about people. In fact, probably more than I should. But I m not good at showing it...at all.

Baby steps.

steven is thinking about a lot.
steven needs thursday to come so he can then deal with whatever the verdict is.
steven is feeling emo.
steven is tired as fuck. stupid jet lag.
steven is regretful of the poor timing associated with this one.
steven had an amazing time in new york.
steven is also, ironically, feeling hopeful.

I think it is time that I have another one of those "life turn arounds" that I talk so much about.
Things. They are a-changin.
It's time to grow up a little.

He's back together with his ex.
Blast.
BLAST I SAY.

Well, he lived far away anyways.
Soon I will find someone in SB.
Soooooooooooon.

Caitlin, I kind of know how you feel.
Let's drown our sorrows together in a pint of Ben and Jerrys.

I agree with Megan ( Read more... )

Fuck it.
I'm done.
I'm over it.
I just wish someone had told me I sucked so bad before I made an ass out of myself 3 years in a row.

God damn.
I fucking hate disappointment.

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I had an epiphany as I drove home tonight.
Yes, involving this movie, that apparently nobody has heard of.
At first I thought it was just frustrating and pointlessly redundant, but he said "there's more to it than that".
So I said I'd think about it and true to my word I did.

The movie ending the exact same way it began was, I think, meant to be ironic ( Read more... )

Fuck I love this song ( Read more... )

Shit can't be easy.
Which I kind of like.
But come on.
I'm sick of the chase.
Yes or no.
Just tell me.
Was I too much?

You don't know what you are missing out on.

Me me I me I.