Lucky for me, there is a gas station that stays open late pretty near to my house. This I had forgotten until about an hour ago when it became apparent that I will not make it through an entire night with no cigarettes. Unlucky for me, I am a girl. Though my neighborhood is in no way as bad as some, it's not great. Since I live right near the ( Read more... )

Coming to terms with things I don't want to come to terms with. I've made so many bad choices in the past 12 months. I'd be lying if I said no good came from them, but I wish that lesson learning didn't always have to hurt so much ( Read more... )

I just got outta the shower and I'm all warm and ready for bed. I even did my homework for tomorrow morning ( Read more... )

My "math" class is messing with my head. I was planning on taking up a crack habit, but after 3 sessions of "Space: One Word, Many Concepts" I have decided it won't be necessary ( Read more... )

My dad just called me and said that he and my mom are putting my Dog, Sugar, down today. I don't know what to do. I should be getting dressed to go catch the bus and go to school right now, but instead I'm sitting here motionless and crying. No one can understand what this feels like unless they've had a pet and loved it for as long as I have. She ( Read more... )

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I am not composed. I am not ok, or happy or unaffected. I am lonely, and sad and dissinterested. I lost my friends to other states and boyfriends and school. I lost my motivation to depression. I lost raun, the one consistent comfort I had. I am trying to be grown up and level-headed about everything, but it's just so much easier to sit here and ( Read more... )

When I got up this morning, I checked my email as usual. There was an email from my Aunt, which is out of the ordinary, and the title was "He's just not that into you". It read something along the lines of ( Read more... )

I made it. I had my first healthy relationship that lasted over a year. It's ending is bittersweet; happy as I am with the non-violent, pleasant way it ended, it still stings and will for a while. I'd never really had anyone like that before; someone who appreciated me, and wanted me to appreciate myself. In him I found an equal, a shoulder to lean ( Read more... )

I went to go see me old psychiatrist this morning and was reminded of what a weird motherfucking guy he is. The means by which he managed to get through med school are beyond me. The last time I went to go see him he fell out of his chair while reaching for my file. He doesn't have file cabinets, just filing boxes on the floor with papers ( Read more... )