because you can't have your cake and eat it at the same time,
because a wiser person than me once said if you love something give it away,
because i have goals that need to be accomplished,
because no more good can come out of our relationship,
and because i'm already self destructive without you,

we're done.

the house feels empty as people continue pack it up and go separate ways
some rooms get bigger, others seem smaller
it feels like autumn and soon it will be winter
but hopefully it will be one of those oddly pleasant california winters.

me and cheeze are the last ones leaving.
how poetic and shit

driving an hour to school sucks, and the 405 can kiss my ass ( Read more... )

ever since i quit the pot i've woke up screaming in the middle of the night.
the price we pay for grounded minds.
i hope i'm not making a mistake.
and i hope i sleep peacefully tonight.

"solyaris" by andrei tarkovsky.
i didn't know science fiction could be that human.
amazing.

i was hungry after work so i drove to Ralph's to get some food. nothing impressed me so i just walked over to the nearby Carl's Jr. i had an hour and a half long discussion with a 74 year old woman about her life, the degradation of humanity over time (she was a catholic, i'm not, but we made it work), and other things that older generations feel ( Read more... )

that have consumed my mind for the past week:

is it considered wise to express a sound opinion to a world full of ignoramuses?

which came first: the mass or the gravity?

"O Lord Most High, Creator of the Cosmos, Spinner of Galaxies, Soul of Electromagnetic Waves, Inhaler and Exhaler of Inconceivable Volumes of Vacuum, Spitter of Fire and Rock, Trifler with Millennia - what could we do for Thee that Thou couldst do for Thyself one octillion times better? Nothing. What could we do or say that could possibly ( Read more... )

"Game recognize game granddad, and you lookin' pretty unfamiliar right now ( Read more... )

i listened to sticky fingers by the rolling stones for the first time in it's entirety.
it was amazing.

"My dear," he said to me once, not at home, but one time in the street, after a long conversation; I was seeing him off. "My friend, to love people as they are is impossible. And yet one must. And therefore do good to them, clenching your feelings, holding your nose, and shutting your eyes (this last is necessary). Endure evil from them, not ( Read more... )