im weird.....but sometimes i miss the days of being lonley and being locked in my room watching countless hours of anime and hentai.....those days were great. i was sad and depressed and going to the arcade alone was great....i use to smoke alot and sometimes drink alot in my room....maybe i dont miss that....i hate smoking and drinking now. i feel ( Read more... )

somebody brought it to my attention.....how am i dealing with all that i have going on? do i ever say...like woah....i can't believe this ( Read more... )

so wedding plans are finally becoming finalized and things are starting to come together. i have to get my dress altered this thursday so it can be ready on time. i pick up my shoes from being dyed on nov. 15th. i paid off sweety's wedding band yesterday and got the money for our marriage license. charles needs to jump on things and figure out what ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to david's bridal and got my wedding dress....it's dressier than what i originally wanted but...i only get married once!!! it's ivory with a darker ivory/rum trim. it's soooo pretty...i got shoes, a vail, a purse, and acessories to match. im pretty much done with myself....gotta find sweety a hanky to match his tie i bought him. ( Read more... )

today i filled out the paperwork for my name change.....starting next semester my new name on the roll sheets will now be Cheng (changed because im not putting what it really is...but it's similar and starts with a C). They also gave me a new ID and took the old one......so now im Alynne Cheng.....weird....so weird.....but very nice! Me and sweety ( Read more... )

for those of you who know or those of you who don't.....im getting married in december =) nothing big really....im gonna have something nicer and alittle bigger next year. i suppose i have to start looking at places to have my wedding at for next year....wow....this is weird....im getting married.

this week has been filled with tons of thinking....i cried alot....was fustrated alot...but in the end i know im making the right decision. nobody would have to ask me twice if i wanted to marry charles....of course i do! do i know when it'll happen??? not really....im actually giddy and happy....i wanna marry charles. now it's just a matter of it ( Read more... )

i'll keep this short and sweet.....am i ready to get married? i luv my bf more than anything....and can't imagine my life without him....he makes everything in life better and my love for him is more than i could possibly explain or put into words. am i ready? am i ready to start a family.....i want it sooo badly....but i don't know if i am willing ( Read more... )

im kinda considering not writing in here anymore....i doubt anybody reads this thing anymore or gives 2 shits about what is going on with my life. though i also write to vent my fustrations....it's just i haven't had time....these next 2 semesters are gonna be hell!!!! though im sooo close to graduation and getting over to where i want to be...cal ( Read more... )

so yeah....im all alone. im here in my boyfriend's bed...minus the sweety =( though i know im bein silly because he will be back in my arms tomorrow night =)our bed wont be the same without him holding me all night long....me waking up next to him as i do every morning...but soon enough i wll get the sweety! for now im working alot....but my hours ( Read more... )