So, I haven't written in this thing in a very long time, and there have been a lot of changes. For one, I'm in a relationship with a wonderful wonderful man named Brian, and we're engaged. We will be married by 2010. I moved out of my mom's...woot! That was honestly probably one of the best things I did. My relationship with my mom has gotten ( Read more... )

i seriously hate life so much right now. i feel like i've hit rock bottom. i'm to the point where i just don't care anymore. i feel like shit right now. i don't know what's wrong w/ me. i need to go back to the doctor. and i need to know what is happening w/ my life. for some reason i owe money to the stupid college. i just want to quit so bad... ( Read more... )

i wish things could be so simple, things can be so hard sometimes. i wish things could be the way they used to be so that i could go back to my simple life where i didn't have to worry about anything. i don't know what to do, and i can't explain it to anyone cuz no one will understand, and its over. its been over. i can't understand anything ( Read more... )

i wish my mom would grow up. i mean..she's like 46. isn't she supposed to be more mature than me? i mean..she's like jealous of my boyfriend and that i spend so much time with him even though i spent my whole life with her. i mean she gave birth to me! but today she was like: 'well if you just don't ever wanna see us again, then that's fine. we'll ( Read more... )

well, i guess it has been a while since i have updated. today i went to class at 9...i got up at 6:30 with Andy...and i over slept so i didn't get to go to choir. my tummy feels weird so i'm not going to psych. but i have to go to this meeting thingy at 3...i just wish it was earlier. then later i need to go turn in some applications, and hopefully ( Read more... )

i have like one day til i move. i haven't even really packed that much...i'm freaking tired and i hate moving and packing..i wish i could just stay here, but at the same time i need to get away from my mom, i love her, but she's just freaking out on me. i don't know what i want my major to be, i miss highschool and being an adult is hard sometimes ( Read more... )

ok so i'm scared to move maybe just a little. i really do hate my mom sometimes...even my uncle gets on my nerves. but i'm not sure this is what i want to do. then i look back and see what is left here for me and there's nothing, it's time to change things and make a life for myself. i broke up with Brian on saturday. i got sick of his crap. he ( Read more... )

so he is a fricken hypocrite. what does that mean? I'll tell you what it means. it means that my ex ex boyfriend, Ted is a hypocrite. First he begs for my friendship, begs to have a so called "human on human conversation before we go our separate ways" he begged for me to talk to him, to see him. Then he throws me away like a huge piece of ( Read more... )

i'm bored and i have no other choice right now but to update. well...ok i lied. i'm too lazy right now to go shower...and i know i have stuff to take care of today. but whatever. it can wait. tomorrow is friday. hopefully that means i can see Brian or atleast talk to him. this relationship is really starting to suck. between me working constantly ( Read more... )