I can agree and relate and whatever else to alot of this. The way you put it firmly establishes in my mind why I just can't keep trying anymore.
I see people not putitng anything in and I am resigned to accept it and not hold it against them. I tire of putting in effort because I always do it and I feel very desperate and dirty to keep up that effort when I get the impression te other party is not appreciative or even aware that I am doing so.
So, I have a reached a point where I am just content to no longer worry or try. I won't worry about losing trust or gaining more and I am not going to try to find new friends, and might not even bother to foster the ones who are here. I am too weak right now, and considering all the battles I have been thru and WHY I went thru them, I see no advantage to beocming strong again just to keep fighting.
I am certain I can say that btter, but hopefully some sense is made. I'm just really out of it right now and don't have time to write well even if I were not.
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I see people not putitng anything in and I am resigned to accept it and not hold it against them. I tire of putting in effort because I always do it and I feel very desperate and dirty to keep up that effort when I get the impression te other party is not appreciative or even aware that I am doing so.
So, I have a reached a point where I am just content to no longer worry or try. I won't worry about losing trust or gaining more and I am not going to try to find new friends, and might not even bother to foster the ones who are here. I am too weak right now, and considering all the battles I have been thru and WHY I went thru them, I see no advantage to beocming strong again just to keep fighting.
I am certain I can say that btter, but hopefully some sense is made. I'm just really out of it right now and don't have time to write well even if I were not.
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