first things first -- my 20th birthday is in exactly 2 weeks from today!! :) i'm kind of excited for it lol.

soooo it's been awhile.. i'm still around, if anyone cares. life has been pretty..hmm..idk..scattered lately.
can't really complain, though. at some times life is just so amazing..and then at other times it's just so blah and boring.

+for most ( Read more... )

this is to the guy --

that the first time i ever laid eyes on you, i wanted to know you.
i just had this feeling that i wanted to be with you.
then, one night, we formerly met at a party.
we hit it off right away, and i couldn't wait to hang out with you again.
so we did just that; we hung out quite a few times.
you told me that you wanted to kiss me ( Read more... )

this whole past week has been pretty sweet ( Read more... )

so many random things are rushing through my head right now ( Read more... )

okay..so i got a weird "prank" call from someone who called himself "matt smith" sunday night while i was at mills' grad party and fire.
except it never really ended up being a prank phone call at all lol!
but the guy told me it was supposed to be a prank phone call..but he didn't have any material.
so, we ended up chatting and getting to know each ( Read more... )

*i'm falling, falling for you babe. my feelings are getting stronger. so why don't you come stay with me, for a little longer.. come here boy. come here boy, yeah. . . .

ahhhh. i like these feelings. idky. but it's good to have someone new come into my life. it worked itself out, real nicely. :)
not getting too worked up about anything, though. i ( Read more... )

funniest commercial EVER!!

well ( Read more... )

once again..
i'm feeling a whole mix of emotions right now.
i am currently extremely pissed..yet unbelievably sad..at the same time.
all i want to do is cry..but i can't.
i don't know why, but it's weird. it's such a weird feeling.
and only he can do it to me.

that guy that most of you know about..that i was involved with..just doesn't view things like i ( Read more... )

[this is referring to last night]

....forgiving and forgetting..again. [more emphasis on the "forgetting" part]
why can't i ever just get over some[one]thing?
move on..
get them out of my life..
let everything go, like it meant nothing..
????

i just hate being mean..
that's just it -- i can't be mean..
even during the times that i should be mean.
i can never ( Read more... )