tho i never finished my summary i was writing, i did get a lot farther into it, than was put in the last entry, unfortunately that was w/ my old laptop which crashed and i lost it all. still feeling bitter about it, i have the majority of what i needed to say in my paper journal, and will finish this eventually. the main reason im wanting to ( Read more... )

At 15 I was diagnosed with depression. The final straw that pushed my parents to seek psychiactric help was an episode in which I had just gotten a bad hair cut. Being so caught up in image as every tennager is this was no good thing. But not every teenager would have grabbed the scissors, held tight, and pulled them across the palm of the hand, ( Read more... )

empty

Well things have been going really well lately. My grades are great (not SO great in math, but better) and ive been attending class all week, missing none, and acing my tests. but its getting so tiring. i haven't really had time for ANYTHING else here lately and i don't really talk to anyone all that much ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking cold right now. I got up, reluctantly, to come to class this morning and was rushing inside the door to get there on time, and slipped and fell down in the middle of the atrium. great.. Then I got to my classroom finally and it was completely empty, WTF? School is getting so hard. Its not that the classes are actually hard or ( Read more... )

well last night i locked my keys in my car over at matts. actually kevin locked them in the trunk. then i had to wait there all night with him and kevvy bout to fall asleep for my dad to bring my keys to me around 7 ( Read more... )

I'm not real sure what I'm doing with my life right now. Everythings trying to go in different directions, and trying to split me appart in the process ( Read more... )

every night and every morn
some to misery are born
every morn and every night
some are born to sweet delight
some are born to endless night

so yeah, since the last time i posted, in which i said i hadn't slept much and shit, i didn't sleep ANY the day after either. i missed some meds and started feeling awful again. when i say awful i mean that i feel like im going to faint, or go into some sort off seizure. b/c the meds i'm on are also given to people who DO have seizures and i'm so ( Read more... )