zati: mama, i dreamt of her again.

mama: what was she doing in your dream?

zati: she was alive and we were having a meal together as a family.

mama: [...]

zati: maybe i dreamt of her because tomorrow is valentine's day.

mama: when did she pass away?

zati: on valentine's day?

mama: you (as a granddaughter) seem to dream of her more than i (as the daughter ( Read more... )

 the decision to revive my old blog for the second time 
further confirmed myself 
that i actually have some heart.


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i've heard this from two of my favourite people - one is from my life mentor, two is from the author who made me realize that we should be happy not because of something (e.g i'm happy because ...) and not when something happens (e.g i'm happy when ...) but we should be happy for no reason.

despite different religions and different beliefs, at least ( Read more... )

i'm sure all of us have seen dollar notes everyday of our lives. the two dollar note, five dollar note, ten dollar note, fifty dollar note. but how many of us actually remember the images on a ten dollar note? i bet even a bankteller doesn't remember any of the images. why do you think that is so ( Read more... )

E + R = O (Events + Response = Outcome)

People who are HAPPY FOR NO REASON orchestrate the events in their lives when they're able to. When they're not able to change the events, they change their responses.

Next time you're in a traffic jam, look around you. You'll probably see someone scowling, yelling at the other cars, and clutching the steering ( Read more... )

i thought every mother understands her children well.
so i was taken aback when my mother did not.
it becomes a challenge for me.
like how a good wife will be matchmade
with a husband who isn't as good as she is.
life's challenges.

i whispered to the moon
return me my friend
my lover
my paradise.

without him
night befriended me
loneliness enveloped me.

moon don't let it be day let it be dark
let it be lonely like me.

-translated from the SEPI movie

when i refuse to let them understand me,
when i refuse to seek opinion of others,
when i don't wish to share that traumatic experience
with the people who cared for me,
when i believe the only thing
i need is time,

does that count as stubbornness?

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project 9TEN11: to read a book everytime i have to wait for someone :)

Bercinta Sampai Ke Syurga (Loving Till We Get To Heaven), page 88-89:-

as soon as i'm done with my prayer, i took a bit of time to do another. to let me have strength from God to support my decision that night. the decision which is based on commands of the heart - the heart is to be calm if it's good & to be anxious if it's vice versa.

dear God, on ( Read more... )

to find tranquility of the heart, go back to your roots. it can be the nature, our mothers who have given us life, God who has created us etc.
- Bercinta Sampai Ke Syurga, page 39

cahaya kegembiraanku,
where do you find tranquility of your heart?