It's been a while. Lots has occurred. Basically, I'm at home right now because being at school is so scary and overwhelming that I can't breathe. I think I've lost myself. I've become so far removed from my mind that I don't know what decisions to make because I don't know what I really feel, what I really want. The lack of sleep doesn't help ( Read more... )

So I hit a car yesterday. Yeah it was great. It was after I had already had a terrible day, so it was a great end to it at midnight. Woo.....................................................Hoo. I was backing out of a parking spot at Matt's apartment and I hit the car that was parked next to me because I turned the wheel really early (thinking there ( Read more... )

"Oh Dear...OOOHHH Dear....Oh, Oh So Sorry"

GARRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Umm...let's just say I'm tired of feeling like this. But I should not react given that I'm not in the greatest state of mind in the present time, and haven't been for a while. Awesome. Can't wait to start school so I have something to focus on again. Shower then bed so my 40 hour week at Target can start tomorrow. Stellar.

I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I don't really know what to do with all this. Did I make the right decision? I can't decide, I keep going back and forth. I think it's really my fault. Too much dependence. Gotta find some way to get control.

Nothing to say really. I've been immensely frustrated with everything lately. Oh well. And no, for all you guys out there, i'm NOT on my period, and no it's not coming up. Can't seem to have one day where everything goes right. Waiting for Kim to get home from Sandusky. I think I need to see her. I'm at home for my mom's birthday. It sucks because ( Read more... )

FUUUUUUCK! I just wrote out this long entry and was STUPID enough to press the "rich text format" thinking it would COVERT everything....NO, NO IT DOESN'T! Anyways...I WAS telling about my "first day" of working at Target. I put this in quotations because it was really just orientation. Twas rather interesting though, I learned some cough cough pee ( Read more... )

So Matt is thinking about the "Coast Guard" eh?! WELL THEN I'M THINKING ABOUT THE ARMY! YEAH! WHATCHA THINK ABOUT THAT MATTHEW?! You can't do that, because you have to be here....with me :) lol. Oh I'm kidding, if he wants to do it, then that's what he needs to do. But it would be hard if he left, I missed him so much when he was in Chicago, so ( Read more... )

Ummm Hello ( Read more... )

I HAVE FINALS TODAY! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! AND TOMORROW!!!! MORE GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!! can't wait for them to be over...except then i have to move home :( I'll miss you OWU! see you in the fall!!!