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Time
The months roll by quickly and October becomes January. So much to say, so little time to say it. Word for the day: compassion -
Profile changes
Due to the positive influence of listening to and spending time around a certain bard, I have made some changes to my profile description. I removed some of the self-deprecations and reworded a few things. I also removed some things to reflect other changes happening within me. And I have added some people (musicians and an author) to my "likes". ( Read more... ) -
Still here
I'm still here. Just haven't found a lot of time where I felt like journal-writing for one reason or another. All in all, I'm not doing bad. It helps that I know I have friends, family, etc who care about me. I don't have a best friend right now....haven't since March. My former best friend chose to end our friendship of almost 18 years. I have my ( Read more... ) -
Had to be done
Just did one of the scariest things I've done yet. I just sent an e-mail off to my best friend, telling her where I'm at with certain things....really nervous about this. But I couldn't keep her in the dark any longer about where I am with regard to my personal paradigm shift. Not and be true to myself or our friendship. Still, it's scary as hell ( Read more... ) -
the weekend
Been a lazy morning at Dad's, but we're about to get moving. Yesterday, Dad worked in the morning and I chilled and wrote some (on a real actual notebook w/ an ink pen) about my weekend at FaerieCon West (which I'll post eventually). After he got off work, we went up to Scotts Mills and I went for a walk in the woods....a much needed walk in the ( Read more... ) -
"Songwriters and Poets"
I just removed the poem "Songwriters and Poets" (the one i wrote in Juneau, AK in 1998 while listening to someone sing and play his guitar at a coffee shop) from my entries for this reason: Today, I gifted the poem to a dear friend who is both songwriter and poet and awesomely talented at both. It is now hers to do with as she wishes. I gave that ( Read more... ) -
Rambling
I'm meeting some friends for dinner in a bit. Doesn't make sense to go home first when that means about 20 minutes each way. So I'm at Starbucks, using their Internet while I kill time ( Read more... ) -
Battling
Battling the insecurities tonight. And it has nothing at all to do with what I'm actually doing physically right now or where I'm at. It's all within. That's okay though. I can do this. And some day I won't have to do this. I'll be in a place within that I won't have to do this anymore....Looking forward to that. Right now, I'm pretty frustrated ( Read more... ) -
The baggage I keep talking about
I'm taking a minute to write about what this baggage is that I keep talking about and how it affects me....or, more accurately, how I let it affect me. My reasons for writing about my baggage are these ( Read more... ) -
Happy Arkansas Update
Awhile back, I wrote about Shanda, me flipping her Camaro on a gravel road near Cherokee Village AR, the letter I sent, owning my own shit about the whole situation, and my sent apology. And last I said anything, I mentioned I hadn't heard anything back. Well, now I have ( Read more... )