I have decided that I love the rain as long as its not in hawaii.... I spent the last hour and a half watching lightening, and listen to the thunder and the rain hit the windows of the screen porch... it was beautiful. I felt in total awe... and I was so happy and I was so relaxed... now :) Im going to go to sleep listening to the rain :P YAY ( Read more... )

So I was sitting in the bath tub today... and realized just how ugly I feel... And then I tried putting myself in a guys shoes to see what someone would see in me... and i cant find anything... If I'm just looking at me... I dont think im attractive at all... my brother took a picture with me and not only do i feel short and fat... but if feel that ( Read more... )

okay wtf is up with parents... I mean honestly did my step mom have a bug shoved up her ass while i was in hawaii or what... she complains about me not trying to be a girl/lady/woman everyday... umm hello last time i checked i wake up a girl/lady/woman everyday... and last time I checked... I do believe that I was born a girl... who cares if im not ( Read more... )

So like this has been the longest i have gone without writing a journal entry... I blame it on work and world of warcraft... Yes gentlemen its offical i am a dork!!! Yeah so I found out where I'm getting stationed. Arizona :P YAY ... I think... LOL but I have to go to a 6 week school in flordia :) its like 40 minutes at most from p-cola so all you ( Read more... )

Well its official... I’m 22... Don't think anyone knows it... well a few people do... I feel like crap... and I dunno... this birthday was by far the most lonely, secluded horrible birthday ever. I got a call from my dad which was cool... and my little brother is back with his ex-girlfriend (ewww) anywho... back to the horrible birthday ( Read more... )

SO its been about a week since Chris moved out. Have had my whole room to my total self the past 3 days... and you know what. I do like it better... I like that fact that I can run around in boxers in a tee shirt again! I like the fact that if I really wanted to sleep naked I could. Do I miss Chris? Let’s think about this shall we... I miss my ( Read more... )

I'm tired. I give up. I can't change. I can't be anything like the person I want to be. I'm done. People see me and whisper stuff under their breathe. They look at me like I'm some sort of monster. I am so tired of trying and being the dirt that people sweep under the rug. I JUST WANT TO .......... I dunno what I want. I lost a friend today ( Read more... )

I'm tired. I give up. I can't change. I can't be anything like the person I want to be. I'm done.

Well what to write... haven't said anything for a while... I am going to certify soon... JOY ( Read more... )

Hmm what to say... I am bored just got off of work... Sitting here thinking about why I write in this thing... and I finally understand that I am an attention whore... Love my attention... or lack there of. I was told yesterday that I turned into the bitter Candy kid again... I'm sorry... I've had some scary days... I want to comfort myself with ( Read more... )