Consequently a notable thin film of flesh that usually resides across my face has been removed just now along with the individual hairs as a transitional process known to many of you as "shaving." I dub this process absolutely preposterous. I do not feel any more desirable as an employee nor do I feel any more physically attractive. Quite frankly ( Read more... )

* I miss playing in Metal bands, I sing for a hardcore thrash punk band right now but the feeling just isn't the same. I read this today, the most fucking epic metal craigslist add I've ever read in my life.

"We are a brand new band looking to create the most powerful and epic music the world has ever seen. We want to dabble in musical styles such ( Read more... )

THE STATIC MASSES

Even when I was younger, I could feel your slimy sculptor's hands
shaping every uneven feature of my body after your fantasies.
Forever crafted to a silent, excessive perfection.
Fingers digging out all visible flaws,
yet you still aren't satisfied with your work.
I'll never breathe or blink or look you in the eye.
I'll never show ( Read more... )

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Now, listen.
Because I've listened to you.
Your voice, your words.
And the music behind them.
And all of it sinks in and weighs me down.
Finds my heart.
And breaks it down.
Breaks it open.
And empties it out.
Tries to fill it back up.
But it just spills out again into my whole body is awake.
I have never felt purer pain than this.
Your in ( Read more... )

Sometimes I see myself laying within an unidentified green garden; it is surrounded by flowers, trees and other elegant plants. They all smell so lovely. The fields of grass tickle my skin. The sun provides my body with warmth, I feel it's rays beating down on me like a gentle wave from the blue sky. Its light is so warm. I close my eyes and never ( Read more... )

I picked up the stench of its loathsome sorrowful scent; An ideal candidate for the devouring. 

I recently got felt up by the cops in Santa Clarita who were looking for drugs in my car. By felt up I mean that the cops searched very intimately In some of the most private of places and by this I don't mean cavity search. It was pretty funny because they didn't find anything although I was scared shitless. These cops were actually pretty nice ( Read more... )

A moment of clarity again! I've realized something; somewhat of a turning point if you will. I took one good look around me and analyzed the people in my life. Some of which are better influences than others. The ones I thought as a better influence seemed to drift away the shadier of a person I became. I did not want this and in exchange I was ( Read more... )

I've got a potential plan, a trump card I'm willing to pull at any opportunistic moment. This idea erupts from the very core of Kern County. One thing at a time but preferably sooner now than later.

So I succumbed to jealousy and became an insatiable monster; it happens! Hahahah but you know what? I'm only fucking human, this is a naturally occurring characteristic trait of what it means to be human. This doesn't necessarily excuse or pardon barbaric behavior but at least I'm honest enough to admit that it sometimes can be a part of me in ( Read more... )