I have had this journal a long time and yet i cant think of one good thing that came out of it. This journal took the one thing i loved and depended on and chiped away at it until it is nearly gone, Chaps. Now i am as much to blame as any my words have had there daggers as much as any ones but this is the last time i hide behind a journal if i ( Read more... )

After all the audition i finally got offered a contract funny part is the theater is in Texas, funny i went all the way to NYC to get hired in Texas, but good news its Texas most famous theater and i got a lead role i am geting paid 500 a week plus housing in a 4 star hotel and traveling expenses not to mention a car for transportation i do have to ( Read more... )

Funny enough as i watched this movie marveling in shirley m marvelous acting job i stumbled on a quote that make me understand something about myself ( Read more... )

So in contrast to my last journal which is still being debated, oh god, i write a less dramatic entry. I went to the Actor Studio taping today thank God i know people and got in for ten dollars instead of the normal 50 so i cant say anything about it because it has not aired and thus is against the law but lets just say i was inspired. First Dustin ( Read more... )

Didn't i learn never have a first date on valentines from all the other horrible dates in the past, actually no. I went on a date with a beautiful girl who works at Banana Republic with me and if the whole dating co workers wasn't bad enough she is my boss... So after she keep making jokes about how old she was and how she always saw her self with ( Read more... )

Crazy enough I was watching the L Word today strange I know. I was actually thinking about Jeremy's friend agent west and how I should call her and I saw the L Word on TV and decided to watch it. Now I don’t know if this was an old or new episode but one of the girls brought a very butch girl to a party to meet the main group, well the main point ( Read more... )

new years resolution ( Read more... )

So i went there with intention of just being excited watching to straight guys try to perform gay tricks which has taken years to master, and what i got was a slap in the face. Although it was hot to see Jake bottom and would have given me plenty of masturbatory imaging i was struck by the over all theme. Homosexual relationships cant work. Now ( Read more... )

So the other day i went to central park with a friend and it struck me how beautiful it was. The snow was flaking from the trees and had kind of settled in piles on the ground it was gorgeous and then some bum walked by and farted and totally brought me back to reality, either way i cant wait till the ground is covered in snow and i can really see ( Read more... )

So running or AIDS benifit concert made me really think about the changes i have made in the last year as well as the people i have meet. First off To Nate i love you and want you to know although we may argue and generally disagree on many thing i understand that you are one of the few people in my life who actually knows me, and anyone who can ( Read more... )