things are so much better without you.

i love you more and more each day.

JDM, you are my everything.

i just don't know man.
i miss her all the time.
i just don't know if i can do it.
god damn it ashley.
why couldn't you have just told me the fucking truth?
you made this so complicated.

i don't think we'd ever be the same.

you're so fucking pissed at me ( Read more... )

hi.

i'm giving you up.
i can't do it anymore.
i don't want to lose him
to something so horrible.
maybe one day we'll meet again..
jesus, how i would LOVE
to have just one big fat line
to say goodbye.

no more cocaine.
i'm through...

we have finally made peace with eachother.
i finally let him go.

i feel so alive.
i feel like i can love again.
i feel like... feel like...

i'm ready.
i'm ready for you, now.
letmeloveyou.

hey....... you.
are you busy right now?
... do you have any plans?
there's some thing's
....i'd like to talk about with you....
you got any smoke?
that'd be helpful.
please, please come talk to me.
i need this.
i need to finally let you go.
let you go, let YOU gofor good ( Read more... )

you have made the past 3 weeks ( Read more... )

shit. damn. fuck.
i'm losing her.

i told her to leave today,
if she wasn't going to be staying here anymore.
my room is not her closet.
i don't know how i feel.
she's my best friend.
she's been sleeping in my bed,
wearing my clothes,
smoking my marijuana,
for 8 months now.
what the fuck?
i miss her.

finally, eye's are starting to open,
and things are being realized.

thank you for helping me.
i wouldn't have wanted anoyone else,
and now i have you.
.....yay. lol

it doesn't feel like the worlds on my shoulders anymore,
and i feel a hell of a lot better.

everything is so complicated.
why can't this just work out? why does everything have to be so fuckin hard and unable to reach? i just don't fucking nderstand. i just want to smile again, hold somebodies hand - to know that there's somebody there, with me, wanting to be with me.
i'm so lonely.