Well happy valentines babe. I miss u lots wish u were here so bad I wanna kiss you and look at you and lay in your arms and hear you breath and it has to be you no one else will do I need your smile to complete me. How did we end up soooo far apart? I need you right here… cause you’re the black and white and I’m the color but color is overwhelming ( Read more... )

HE CHANGED HIS MIND!!!!!!!!! hallelugijh blessed jesus for bringing my baby back to me. 'nuff said
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Can’t even believe how horribly things fell apart, and so quickly too. He called me last night. To tell me he’s out of jail… and that he was breaking up with me. He said he couldn’t handle, that I’m too far away. And I am so very very far away… but ya he said he’s done. I asked if it was forever done and he said no, maybe, it depends…. I don’t ( Read more... )

so i leave to go back to chi tommaro.at seventhirty on a plane. i was supposed to go see devin play at the blue sky tonight. one last time together before i'm gone again. one last night till god knows when. and guess what his mom just called to tell me oh boy, hes in jail. wooooow utter fucking hurt.i cannot take this.... WHAT JUST HAPPENED ( Read more... )

I want to go out. Are nights out with my friends too much to ask? Where I’m just gone and that’s ok? And yes Devin counts as one of those friends. My best friend in fact. You weren’t the only ones who missed me while I was gone, he had it worse cause he thought he might never get to see me again. You guys know I’ll be back one way or another. ( Read more... )

I never know exactly how to start these…. I have sooo much I want to say and do and somewhere in the middle life happens. I didn’t ask for it to be the way it is… if I had my way id live in an incomprehensible fantasy world where very little made sense. The intricate complexities of this mythical world all came from the miniscule details of my life ( Read more... )

Ariel died a few days ago… how many details did she see? How many did she miss? All snatched away so fast, and just when things were coming together she had her feet firmly on the ground and then just like that her ragged skate shoes left the pavement and she spun wildly through the air in a disastrous tangle of lost possibilities. She wrote in my ( Read more... )

Pop culture and its value to society: I’ve finally figured out the machine. I always wondered “wow these songs suck why are they popular? Ya they’re catchy and all blab la bla but why?” and I suppose I wouldn’t have minded if it was the music I listened to that surged through the radio. But always I wondered… I found that the more times u listen to ( Read more... )

scott and i had a blowup a few days ago. it was a saturday night. i went shopping the day before and was eagerly awaiting the chance to wear my cute new clothes. parties at PT are always an experiance... so anyway i was in the midst of styling my dirty hair when scott came in from work, storming in like a hurricane, antagonistic and beligerant. i ( Read more... )

There are times when you look at your own face and see a stranger… its on those days that reassessing your life takes priority over anything else. I feel numb and dislocated I find focusing to be difficult. There is little to focus on. So how did I reach this place? Its one of those questions that may be painful to address but perhaps the answer’s ( Read more... )