we've both got a lot of things wrong with us.. and that's fine... But what really makes me an idiot is that I subject myself to this.

I'm fading into something. I feel bland and slightly numbed. I don't really know where it's coming from, maybe I am just feeling so much that if my body actually let me feel I wouldn't be able to handle it... So I'm constantly being emotionally numbed. It's like the book that I just read; A Wrinkle In Time. How IT was the center of everything ( Read more... )

Last night was a pretty good night. Today is not so bad. Everything seems to be coming together at the most awful time, though. I mean, I wait and wait for things to finally fall into place and then they start as soon as the idea's they were based off of got all shaken up. Whatever though, I am going to fucking win this godawful battle. You'll ( Read more... )

I have made the change. This time not even you can break me down. lol, I WILL SUCCEED. Hell yes ( Read more... )

Here we are again. You and I. So much for zippers, I'm falling out all over the place. This hole is whole and I am not going to forget. Let it go, blah blah blah. Who needs to let things go when you can just let them be? Not me, that's for sure. Anyway, the rain is hard and my mind isn't spinning too much. My heart is beating alright and I ( Read more... )

Sick of novelty. Finally the word sinks in, it's all around me. I just want to be here with you. Just me, just you. I couldn't ask for anything more, I wouldn't do it. Even just me, though, I think that it will be okay. I've gotten so much better at this and the boredom is starting to dissipate. I feel good today. I feel mentally productive ( Read more... )

Flies I say! All flying around incesting all over the place... and you can't find nothin at all because there was nothin there in the first place. Stale cookies, Merry Christmas... I guess you can have a little bit'o'me too. Or maybe not, maybe I will just give you a deep pink wax copy of my fingertip with those cookies.

Cry until you puke it all up out of your infested insides hoping that it will go away forever but it always comes back and it never forgets what you look like just like the rest of them they never forget even though you wish they would just let it go away from here to some far away place on a greyhound bus or some other form of transportation that ( Read more... )

I think I finally figured out what I want to do.

Still unemployed. My brother is here, it's really nice to have him around. It's been really snowy and cold outside... which I'm starting to warm up to. I'm really hoping for a white Christmas this year... I'm also having a really hard time lately with being stationary. I really want to leave Boise for a few days. I'm going to be getting some ( Read more... )