Is the feeling of being useless universal to everyone? I cant shake the feeling of utter defeat that I feel as I move. I just feel like I’m moving with out a purpose or reason and I can’t stand that, or the thought that your not welcome that seeps into your mind. It does seem to be a common occurrence. I don’t like change and I’m going to be ( Read more... )

I feel hollow there is no point to my existence, and yes there must be a point to all existence. Maybe I haven’t found it, maybe I should be patient but my mind won’t allow for it. If there is no point to going and every day is painful experience why stay? I have heard many arguments against suicide yet one holds any substance for me. That it ( Read more... )

So I think I broke something but hell I live threw it. Not really a pain matter but it sneaks up on you. I need to work on being faster a bit slow for fighting also need my other arm to just do what the right one dose and work on its own ( Read more... )

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So my dad changed something on the grill today, short story even shorter, I got an easy hair removal system going ( Read more... )

I’ve found a song that sums up what I think. Its on repeat, it makes me want to just stop. I’m not sure if anything is really worth it. I’m forgetting things, hell I’m forgetting to even see. Is this what they call melancholy? When all you want to do is fade or die, to be taken from existence or fall into a deep form of dementia so that you ( Read more... )

I cant quite place it but things are come in and out of reality. To elaborate I look at my hands I don’t see the connection between than and myself. Do I control my body but my body not control me? (like a diode controlling a one way flow ( Read more... )

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Leave life to the living you are dead and that is the way it should be. You cannot live with that that is around and roam with the knowledge that you exist. You see thing that are not there and hear them even though they are in you mind. Grabbing reality by its essence and creating a universe unto itself dose not negate the true one itself; it ( Read more... )

Every one has their insanity. It’s a matter of finding or what is tied o in most cases. It just not a mild passing thought it is something that carries all the way to the core of their being. That is the purpose of first contact, to find what sets people off and what makes them recoil. This sounds really bad doesn’t it? But a lot of people ( Read more... )