So strange how nothing can change, yet everything inside you does anyway, as if some invisible hand reached into the depths of your soul and pulled you up out of the deep.  Sometimes I'm afraid of this peace, pensive, waiting for the bottom to drop out.  Even then though, a still small voice reassures me.  It's ok to relax, to enjoy this fresh new ( Read more... )

Two hours before  missed it.....

I almost didn't post, but I must, I have a need, I crave it.  There's so much I can talk about, and so much I shy away from as the topics surface in my mind.  So I'll stick to the basics, the concerns that plague me now and daily.

My health.  I'm scared.  I've never been very smart about taking care of myself, and ( Read more... )

   I love to write. Love it.  Yet, I've done nothing in over 2 years.  I need to be more commited, especially now when I so desperately need an outlet.  So, here we go again.  I'm almost 30, and I want to have evolved at least somewhat positively in my twenties.  Not that i believe I haven't at all, but the scales are tipping in the opposite ( Read more... )

   Trying to gather it all in my mind and trace things back to  the start of what I want to tell you,  I'm realizing how long it's really been not only since I've written, but since I've allowed myself a moment to look backward at  the expanse of time I've vaulted across in the past few years ( Read more... )

I every so once in awhile refer to this journal to look back at where I've been, and every time I do.. I miss it ( Read more... )

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Oh babies, don't be like that, I've simply discovered myspace and become slightly addicted ( Read more... )

i have been being productive..kind of. I went and put in an application about a week ago, and went to my old highschool to get my transcripts sent over to Illinois Central College. So, I'm trying to get a second job, not a new one. If it falls through that's alright, because it'll only be for the summer anyways, I plan to start school in the ( Read more... )

Earlier I made a huuuge post. And then I hit a button, and poof, it was gone. So, later today, after I come home from playing pool with barely legal boys, I will re-post what I wanted to say ( Read more... )

Today was alright. I went out with Rocco (his real name is Jason), it was a better time than I had imagined. He's funny, articulate ( Read more... )