So close... just a little bit more, and I will have what I need.  One day at a time...

I can do this.

Sweet Gods of Khem, Eire, and the bleak north... you have been so good to me lately.  I am grateful as I stand upon this precipice...

Give me the strength to do what I must, the will to earn what I need, and help me find ways to make the ends meet for the tight month ahead.

I will not forget those who aid me in my hour of need.

It's taken a year of talking about it.  It's taken me battling the shadows of my soul and deciding to be more than what I was.  It's taken battles with my personal fears, and remembering that the past is in the past ( Read more... )

I suppose It's time I mentioned it here.

On March 20th, 2011, I asked Ashlyn Nicole Hood to be my wife.  She said yes.

And so I turn the book into a new chapter.

It's a rainy day outside.  Real rainy.  It makes my hips throb.

But I will hold my tongue and my temper.

Promise.

Kindness and love and other good virtues...

Noone needs a spite spitting scorpion.

my world feels very small right now.  I'm trying to think my way past some problems, most of which can be solved by getting a second job, preferably full-time.

I just can't explain in words how little I want to do that.  *sigh*
But there's work out there.  I can do it.  I really can.  I have a good resume.

I just need some foreward momentum.

Psst.  Ashlyn's birthday is in less than a month. Sources say she's gonna get a suprise ( Read more... )

Odin.  It's going to be him I have to pray to.   He affixed the wyrd to me... so he must show me the way.

Tonight... perhaps tomorrow, but likely tonight... I will pray to him for the wisdom I need, to know the path I need to follow.

But there's always a price.  And his are steep.

Can't sleep.  Future will eat me.

I've had a hell of a week.  Not sure why, just... gah.  I about had a mini-breakdown this afternoon.  There's just a lot of stress going on for me, and I'm trying so damn hard to hold everything together.  Had a great party tonight, don't get me wrong, but... man.  I need to find a way to relax.  I barely sleep.  My appetite's fading (at least I'll ( Read more... )