JUST GIVE ME FUCKING REASON

oh, what am i saying? you've given me so many. thank you, won;t see you later.

ever feel like just locking your bedroom door, turning off the lights, and just sit there? i feel this. and i'm changing inside, and everything's changing. nothing's the same, and i'm finally not missing my old self. i'm ready for change and i'm here with open arms towards it. i want this change. i want to feel. i want to stop making myself ( Read more... )

so few happy things ( Read more... )

i feel empty,...like i'm nothing,..because that's how i've been treated by so many,...all in one day. for the first time in a long time, my message board is empty,...no one posts,...and i've got all these odd people i dont know coming and fucking up my board,...i want those i care about back,...i know i'm not alone, and yet i feel like i've no ( Read more... )

having trouble getting started on work,...so much to do, so much procrastination to follow,...the will not to do things is getting more and more, increasingly powerful than my will to get up off my ass and do what needs to be done, like a good monkey ( Read more... )

i've outlived my happiness,....and now i have nothing to live for and nothing to love,...i've lived long enough to see how unforgiving life is,...today i learned how to love, and i learned that i'm hated. in the new year, i've created a new sadness. a sickness to infect and maim me,...so leave your empty smiles for sumone who can smile back,...save ( Read more... )

i've asked for too much

and given too little

perhaps now, i've learned my lesson.

perhaps not

i'll pay with my soul,

if there's no lesson left to learn

Was it jealousy that made my stomach turn? or was it the fact that the past was repeating itself on every occaision? i never spoke the words that needed to be said, and now it must wait until long after,...it's this emptyness that i feel all the time, and this gap being filled with a short lived experiences. i was left behind on the wheel of time ( Read more... )

it's been a while ( Read more... )

Too many things aren;t going right,...nothing, really,...i'm failing everything, i've got so manythings piled up i can't hand a single thing in on time, i've lost one of the most amazing friends i could ever have asked for, because of a stupid arguement i've lost my friends to a fucking hacki-sac, friends all around me are having a terrible life, ( Read more... )