so if my head lies to heart for long enough will my heart eventually belive my head?

james just called and matt has a girlfirnd even though he said he liked me and all that...so now ive lost two guys in two weeks so im going to ask everyone again "whats wrong with me"??????

im extremely excited because today i tried on my skinny jeans(you know the ones you keep in hopes youll be that smal again)and they fit, they werent tight either they were big and they were size 2's!!!!!!!!!!and im at a comfy weight...a nice 118 so im happy with me at the moment...sorta

feeling a little better now...mainly because tonight i was told something that ill never forget "you have a heart of gold, dont let fools tarnish it. you deserve so much and no one should crush you like that, you're too precious"
*sigh*quotes like that dont come along everyday...i still done feel great though

so i dont think im going to get on lj for a while...i cant handle it..i tried so hard to be strong while we had school but i cant do this anymore....ive officially broken down...im making bad decisions involving ppl from harrison couunty and i cant control myself anymore..im still losing wieght..im down to 118 now so thats 10 whole pounds that ive ( Read more... )

last night was great but now i hate myself for what happened and then this morning i was an ass..im really an awful person

im pretty sure tonight was one of the best nights of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am getting my belly button pierced..tehehe im not sure how i got my parents talked into it but i did..i think i know tha at least my dad is ok with it

i cant seem to study..i can do everything but study as a matter of fact..i can think about my crush and how ill undoubtedly end up going to hell and i can even contemplate how badly im going to fail my finals but i cant bring myself to study

ok ok so i officially had a great night..really great night!i went to harrison county again..that place will probably be my summer hangout..ok so anyway we went to the store..i went off to get cupcake mix cause i was gonna make my senior friends cupcakes cause i love them dearly and will miss them..ok so anyway in the cupcake isle theres me and ( Read more... )