decided to check this since it's been a while and couldn't feel satisfied talking about one specific point since there is so much to talk about ( Read more... )

every time I take a step back and look at what's in front of me, I'm pleased

no matter how much preparation I put into things, I still manage to be surprised, to be humbled, to be caught in the moment.

Lots of that is going to happen inside of the next couple weeks. I'm nervous. I'm excited.

the moment i stop learning
is the moment i start dying.

let's share stories.
let's make new ones.

simulations don't stimulate me anymore
and synthetics make me miss what's natural.

i want something real, something tangible
and i'm going to go outside and get it
because i'm an animal
that can change my body
and change the earth.

I went to Barnes and Noble to take a 30 minute break from running stats earlier today and figured I could grab some coffee and a book for later. Upon arrival, the Nook kiosk was front and center. I could hear clapping from the cafe side and noticed that there was an open mic night going on. The first thing I decided to do was head straight for the ( Read more... )

i can sense all of my worlds starting to separate.

i still get those feelings that make me want to explode
not the kind of explosions that are violent
but more like
BOOM, I GOT YOU SURROUNDED

i'm pretty sure every time i strike up a conversation with someone new, it is pretty much like that.

i think i wrote in this thing like eight years ago that i want to be everywhere at once...that idea still

I'd like to think that all the pressure that I put on myself is imaginary ( Read more... )

i've been filling in these voids with tumors, not scars. scars aren't malignant.

these recurring dreams and nightmares won't stop.