I need help. I need to find a way to talk to myself, my real self and figure me out. I dont know what is going on. I just. I dont know. I want the world, I want everything, but then I have those days when I just want my life. I want to be done building it and just live it, yet technically I am doing both ( Read more... )

i dont know anymore. i am the epidemy of cognitive dissonance only i cant seem to make any connections. I say one thing, say another, do a few different things. i have extreme highs and then days when i just want to stay in bed. i like being single but yet i also want so badly to just have someone that i can curl up with and feel safe. someone i ( Read more... )

only trouble i tell u...i dont have the schedule for them...its really not fair and not fair to me either, if i get home from work and they are out or sleeping i want to be able to still hang out with ppl not go find them or do what they are. i mean hey...last boyfriend tried to cheat on me once while i was at work..and who knows what else he did ( Read more... )

i really dont know what i want. i want a relationship yet i dont. i dont know what he wants. i dont want it to matter. but yet it does. i wish i understood. others but also myself.

so she would be 18 today. i dont know. its weird to think how long it has been. everything she would have done. graduated. gone to college. boyfriends. jobs. everyhting i have been able to do. the opportunities she never got. this year is definitely easier on my emotions but it still pinches a nerve. i cant help but think about it. it doesnt matter ( Read more... )

so i dont really know what i want. i know what i def dont want, but idk what i do want. and idk what he wants. idk how he feels but i know what he said. but i also know that not always what is said is what is felt. idk. idk. idk. the one part i hate about being single...

so i have no idea what i feel for who at this point...the joys of being single...its all like a tanlged mess...urg...

do we have more then one true love? can anyone ever compare to our first? and how do we really know it is love...maybe it is just more emothion then ever felt before, but then is it love...what if we doubt it and then one day realize that it was so much more then we thought. but then to stay with someone we may not love, with someone that may go no ( Read more... )

i never had regrets...never thought they should even exist. i mean how can you regret something bc u never know how life would be if it was different. there is no guarantee that life would be any better if a different decision had been made ( Read more... )

20/20 vision is something to be wanted and coveted. It is always said that we all have 20/20 hindsight but do we really? we may be able to see the short term effects of our choices but we never know the full extent of them. and we will never know what may have happened if we hadn't chosen what we did. regrets are not worth our time. because we will ( Read more... )