one year, 10 months

[readrunsmile]

one week after a year of the accident. 10 months since our first date. 3 days shy of our official 10 months. i wish i could just pick up the phone and call him. but i cant. i love him, i htink. this is the closest thing i have ever had to love and i dont know what to do. thingfs have happened. i have dismissed a friend who was only trying to help

Comments

[anonymous]

He was in his right mind and knew we were there when he turned around" "I think he wanted it to happen but with a different outcome".
who's quote is that? why would you post such a thing? I thought you were different.

[readrunsmile]

who the hell is this? "i thought you were different"? meaning? listen. i have enough troubles and i hope that the author of this comment reads this or responds with want the hell they mean. it is none of your business whose quote it is bc you wont identify who u r. why i posted it is my business. obviously u hav no idea what is goin on or was bc then it would have obvious that i was upset and had a reason to not be all that trusting. just tell me who this is or keep your damn mouth shut. better yet talk to me in person and u might atually get answers or i might take your advice. im srry if this is a friend of mine but i really hate this anonymous shit.

[anonymous]

i do know what is going on, i know you, i know him. i don't think that talking to you in person would get me answers so i won't bother. if things are that bad then just get out. why stay around?
i know who what there that day, everyone does. i can only think of 2 people who would make a comment like that. 1 more then the other. but anyway. to think it is one thing but to post it for the world to see is another.

[readrunsmile]

quite honestly i dont know what i think bc i dont know what happened. i wasnt there. i can only hope that i know the truth, but sometimes it is not enough. maybe i just wanted someone to tell me i was wrong. that i was right to trust him. but now it doesnt matter does it?