some advice has led me to make this friends only. shouldnt affect anyone, but if you want to get access to this journal and cant leave me a note. 

is it my turn to catch a break?

for the peruvian death flu

man im a wuss when im sick

happy fucking birthday to me

:(

so im not a very good updater, sorry. things have been he usual, up and down and up and down and all over the place. I wish i could say im coping with things better, but most of the time i am not. Last night was a good example of me sorta fooling myself that everything is ok, and then getting really upset when i realize it isnt. Its hard to fool ( Read more... )

revert.

invert.

protect.

run.

im so bad at quitting, and i cant quit you

but you quit me.

hope its what you want. love you

 I hate the all or nothing feeling i seem to get from my friends and family. Its do it this one way and i get magical friendships, loving relationships, caring family, etc, or lose it all. Theres no middle ground where i can manage parts of the equation. And if im not quick enough to change then i lose everything thats important to me. Its so "in ( Read more... )

mardi gras kicked my ass

if im the only one who still gets a bit teary eyed when i hear the national anthem played/sung well?

also, my computer died :(