*sigh ( Read more... )

so it turns out my back pains were all muscular. which is a good thing- for a bit i was worried it had something to do with my kidneys. any note, im now on a couple different medications to help treat the pain, and inflammation. Im not a huge fan of these medications though... one upsets my stomach, even with food. while another causes me to get ( Read more... )

The walls between ( Read more... )

so... perhaps it is a lil... soon... but tomorrow we are having a small bday gathering at my mom's house for myself and my sister. decided maybe this would be a good time to see how she would interact with my family(and how my mom feels about her). my family means the world to me, so with their approval it will just further push me into pursuing ( Read more... )

kind of embarrassing... woke up early just to spend alittle bit of time with her- what the hell am i doing

so being our first date i decided that it would be best we go out to dinner... something that we could be a bit more social, and figure things out about each other... tell stories of past events, family, and everything else ( Read more... )

1st date

hoping everything goes well ^-^

*update later*

it seems like every step forward is 3 steps back.
maybe it is best just to stand still.

im almost 21... november 17th...

and i actually am starting to dread it. it seems so old, and i rather enjoyed the innocence of being "young".

so... i have heard about the lie circulating about me ( Read more... )

another depressing "woe is me" entry ( Read more... )