I never realized how much I truly miss my friends I used to hold so close until last weekend. I saw Keith for the first time in a while...we went out to lunch and ended up talking for four straight hours. It was so nice to be able to just talk about anything and everything that is going on in our lives. I spent the night at Amanda Morris' house ( Read more... )

Kairos. Most definitely a time I miss with all my heart. Why can't I be like that anymore? I hate change. Especially this kind.

I was so sober tonight. Yet, everyone thought I was the drunkest out of the bunch. So random.

I cried for the first time in a while today. I hate this feeling. I want nothing more than to be full. But I feel so empty.

I feel like I have been really anti-social lately. Be it with my friends here at Poly, or friends that are away at school. I think the only person I have a quality conversation with everyday is my sister Bonnie. It's kinda bad, but at the same time, I just don't really have the energy to put into every relationship I have. It seems to me that any ( Read more... )

It's so weird that I can be so happy, yet so sad all at the same time. I get in these really weird moods where I am super hyper, and then I just crash and get all depressed. If you have any advice....I'd love to hear it! :)

I'm in a sort of weird mood tonight. I was really hyper for like an hour...and now I'm extremely depressed. And all night I've been thinking about how I want to drink. And possibly get drunk. This is bad, I know; but I feel like I am at my breaking point, and I really don't want to deal with any of this shit anymore. My head won't stop thinking ( Read more... )

it's funny what one simple conversation can do. knowing that for once in my life, something i did, didn't completely screw up everything i love in my life. im not sure exactly how it will turn out; but i dont care. the fact is, i was honest, and for that i will always be proud of myself. i hope that one day, the conversation will turn in my ( Read more... )

How does the destruction of one friendship breakdown any others closely related?

i know it is always something i keep coming back too, but i have been thinking a lot about life and relationships. i could care less when my time comes, i mean, the sooner the better, but i know when my time is meant to be, it will come. but that doesnt mean i dont ponder...i just read this cheesy teen novel (i know, really stimulating right?) and ( Read more... )