so 2 nights in a row i've hung out w/ my sister & her boyfriend & one other random couple. so i have been the 5th wheel or whatever, as usual. i always do this to myself- reject every guy that's interested in me, & then i wind up all alone, just like i wanted, but- surprise! i don't want it anymore. sigh. i'm not really sad, i just kind of wish i ( Read more... )

i had a good day, but ( Read more... )

on a lighter note, i made up for spending all day saturday at my sister's xtreme cheerleader thing at the mall (CHEERLEADERS EVERYWHERE! I DIDN'T KNOW THERE COULD BE THAT MANY IN ONE PLACE!) by hanging out w/ some of my friends that night. i thought they weren't serious about their band, but those guys sound pretty decent. i'm an 'honorary member ( Read more... )

oma passed away today. i've been upset for weeks now, but today i held it together for my family, myself, & oma. she always hated it when i cried. i knew i'd have to be the strong one ( Read more... )

just listen at this ( Read more... )

i have learned every single little part of the human skull, but i couldn't take the test (our principal/anatomy teacher pointing to parts on a model & the student saying the names) friday b/c he let all the football players & cheerleaders go before me since it was game day, even though i'd been sitting up there waiting for like 10 minutes. i said " ( Read more... )

remember that miracle i mentioned? oma is doing a little better than was thought, so it isn't totally hopeless. the news made me so happy yesterday. and my mom found this huge snail in the flower bed that reminded her of the ones she saw when she was young in the gardens in germany; she's never seen one over here & seems to think it was a good sign ( Read more... )

i'm low on gas money b/c i bought a (used) green day cd & some nail polish. my check engine light has finally gone off, though. & i got 8 bucks for selling a couple of my cd's ( Read more... )

oh no...school starts tomorrow, my junior year...i was excited until i remembered we have to get up early...where did summer go?? and my back still hurts, i pulled a muscle somehow...maybe basketball or yoga ( Read more... )