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and so it goes
i often wonder where i am supposed to be. what my true calling is. jack of all trades, master of none. thats been my greatest fear, always ( Read more... ) -
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I wish I could put my finger on it. I wish I knew what it was. It's not depression. It's not necessarily all fear or anxiety. It's a bit of excitement, coupled with lonliness that sinks in only when you're not supposed to be lonely, the kind that is not okay to talk about. It's curiousity and apathy rolled into a bit of nervous tension and It' ( Read more... ) -
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Im so tired I cannot think. Im contemplating life again, contemplating what it means. I can't believe I'll be home in less than a week. -
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I seriously never intended on this. on becoming emotionally invested in new people and new places. it scares the shit out of me. i cried so many times over the last few weeks and not just because i am a woman and i am emotional and dramatic and latina. of course i am all of these things. but because things are changing again. i have often ( Read more... ) -
self discovery
daily i discover things about myself which i would have years ago never believed. i used to say that I WOULD NEVER DO THIS. Or, I often told myself, I NEVER like to....fill in the blank. I usually prove myself wrong. I should never say never. I used to believe that I didnt like dancing. But since I have moved to Michigan I have been dancing ( Read more... ) -
REAL
im thinking about applying for more summer legal jobs. im going to go to the career office tomorrow after work. the thing is. im burned out. i need to do something besides law school. i might just work full time this summer at the bookstore. or i might work some legal job somewhere if someone is willing to hire me. i truly have no idea what ( Read more... ) -
ash wednesday and other revelations...
Lent begins without me today and Im feeling a bit sorry for myself ( Read more... ) -
humilty
I sometimes wonder why I am so critical of myself. I am in my fifth term of law school and am getting my grades back from last term, I am deciding what it was that I did last term that was not so very helpful for me, if you will. I mean, I know it's law school, its difficult etc. But I am seriously attempting to get on the deans list and I am ( Read more... ) -
Miracles
I often see miracles in the simplest moments. The way things come together can often amaze me enough and I usually exclaim it aloud..."Oh my god what a miracle!" I guess most people just write it off as me being dramatic...which makes sense if you know me. But when I say something is a mini-miracle or rather a miracle, I mean I truly can see the ( Read more... ) -
YO
My first final is monday and by friday at midnite, my momma will be picking me up from the airport. i cant wait to be home for a while and not have to read any cases or worry about anything, except family and friends. I am amazed how fast my second term went and this summer I am only taking three classes, so I will have a lighter load, for this ( Read more... )