Just had my first test in Oceanography. Nerves are shot. Not only that but V day is next week. God I hate V day. Not only was it the last time I talked to Megan but I also don't have a girlfriend. I would kill for a Girlfriend. Well thats all for now.

Its been know Two weeks since I started school again. Its gotten easier for me to go to class on from class. I still miss my old friends and I still believe I might run into Megan. I like both of my Teachers. They are both very cool and fun to listen to. Next week I will be in the Planetarium at school that should be very cool. Well I got to go and ( Read more... )

Today was my first day back in class. I am taking Oceanography this semester. I found it hard today at the end. I had to walk all over to find a phone to call a ride. As I walked all those memories of the first time I went to school started to flash through my mind. I have found myself really depressed. I really miss all my old friends. Specially ( Read more... )

I just got home from seeing avatar. God damn that is one hell of a movie. You barly notice that it is 3 hours long. I haven't enjoyed myself this much since star wars.

Something is wrong with me. I find it so hard to let things go. To move on. It has been close to six years since everything happened at Wendy's. I can't let Megan go. I spend most of my time at home or at work and I don't have anyone to hang with. I try to talk to people on-line and I make people mad or I scare them away. I find my self looking for ( Read more... )

I have come down with a mild case of swine flu. Nothing major. I feel like hell. However my mother has gone off the deep end. Everytime I sneeze or blow my nose I have to wash and sanatize my hands. I can't leave the house even to go to get pills. god save my soul. And in my fevered brain I can't get the night megan was kicked out of her house out ( Read more... )

megans b-day is coming up. For some reason this time of year always upsets me. I miss her greatly even now that I am tring to get someone in my life I find it so hard not to think about her. I admit that I screwed up our friendship. It is all my fault. Its been five years sinc the fight we had and it still hurts like it happened yesterday. I will ( Read more... )

I am probably going to get alot of women mad at me for saying this but this is just something I have observed. Most women hate their breast. I come to that conclusion because most women never have anything nices to say about thiers. They hurt, thier to small, to big,their to hevy,bras period, they get in they way, their bags of fat, I get no ( Read more... )

My week turned for the worse yesterday morning. I had a doctors app. and my doc told me I had high blood pressure( and that I need medacation for it) and that my asthma was out of control. This is all that I need. My life sucks. I have no friends to hang with, my health suck, I get paid shit less then $700 a month, and I am still obsessed with a ( Read more... )

Its funny but after all this time it finnally happened. Know youmight think I am crazy but I never had any dreams about Megan where we did anything sexual. In a dream this morning I finally got to kiss her beautifull lips. In the dream Megan and Doug came over to visit me don't really know why but I had gifts for them. We where having a good time ( Read more... )