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Everybody's Gotta Learn Some Time
I'm unhappy with my period induced state of mind. All I want to do is drink wine and watch girly love movies and cry. Which so far I've been doing although replace wine with Diet Pepsi. My hormones usually never affect me this much but right now all I want to do is sob and my loneliness for a partner is so strong right now. I miss so very much the ( Read more... ) -
Mommy Issues
I was in the Old Navy fitting room across from Deer Park Towne Center while Natalie and Mike were trying on clothes. A little girl about 10 years old was trying on clothes with her mother. The mother was obviously annoyed with her daughter and every word the mother said was clipped. At one point the girl came out with an outfit on that was really ( Read more... ) -
I Started The Joke That Started the Whole World Crying
Oh Jakob Dilan with your gorgeous blue eyes and cleverly switched out c in your first name.....where have you gone? To the land of the gaunt-faced never-as-good-as-your-father lands I suppose. They're an interesting thing fathers. And mothers. They're all prone to the same vices and pitfalls as everyone else and being parents, prone to leaving it ( Read more... ) -
Only the Lonely
My life is entirely one big conundrum. The root of it is the ever widening pit of how I live my life for others on one side, and how I want to live my life for me on the other. It's like a bad riddle; A young woman is on one side of a deep crevasse, but her only hope of happiness is on the other side. She has no physical means to help her cross ( Read more... ) -
The Lesser of Two Evils
I want to open up a dialogue with Pete, to figure out what happened for real on Saturday night. However, I'm exhausted and now I'm faced with one outcome: a racing mind that will keep me up anyway. The only difference is which set of thoughts will burn out quicker, the nervous anticipation of the impending conversation that I need to have because ( Read more... ) -
Maybe Zach Braff Was Onto Something
Just kidding! Zach Braff is on to nothing, such an egomaniacal twat. However, my med situation has been rocky so I'm kind of a weird place and I'm starting to get that late night urge to purge my room of everything I haven't cared about in six months and clean every corner of it. I miss feeling ways about stuff very much. I played my viola tonight ( Read more... ) -
Dream
So, I had another epic dream last night that was really fun and confusing at the same time. Like the feeling evoked by the perpetual tilday attached to my cursor. My dream began with Megan and I deciding to host a party, and we just called a bunch of people and asked anyone we ran into in the street that looked cool to come by. We lived in NYC, but ( Read more... ) -
Rice and Beans
To really buckle down and save for grad school, that'll be all I can eat for a year. But as long as the rice is white, the beans are black, and the salt flows like busted river dams, I'll be all right. I am starting to get really concerned about my ability to break from my routine with the job I have now. It'll be a year in a little under 2 months ( Read more... ) -
I Refuse to Read Bukowski on Principle
It's my least favorite name drop. Modest Mouse just shuffled on to that particular track and it made me shudder a bit. But on the other hand...well you just gotta name drop sometimes. Send out a feeler like, "who else is into this? Did you all know I'm into this? I'm the shit, I'm into this ( Read more... )