No see

so its good to write your feelings. Gosh, I'll never understand. WHy cheat on me? Why be such a dick to me? Ill never understand how someone can treat someone they love like such a piece of shit. I never want to be in love again! i hate bipolar fuck faces! iF i EVER GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP AGAIN, i WILL KNOW THEIR MOTHERFUCKING MEDICAL HISTORY ( Read more... )

So Chad and I broke up Friday night. A year and a half we were together. It's hard right now. I really can't eat. Throw up, drink wine. Today I'm trying to eat a granola bar...im half way through...i think I'm done.

In the long run it's for the best. There are a lot of things I'm going to miss.

One thing I'm proud of: I've been keeping a record of my life since I was 9. Journals...then livejournal. It's healthy you know, so you can always look back.

Ive been thinking a lot, about life...especially about death. It's on my mind all the time. Recently death concerning my mom rather than myself has been haunting my thoughts. It's so wierd, I was a normal functioning human being before not too long ago. Now I have bad anxiety and thoughts of horrible things and i can't do some things I used to. I ( Read more... )

Chad apologized for ruining my halloween by showing up with flowers and subway yesterday. I dont know whats going on anymore. we are going to see my friends in june tonight, go to a costume party afterwards. we'll see how everyting goes

my relationship is starting to be really shitty

my real estate agent called me today ( Read more... )

on my chessssst

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MEET MARLEY!!!

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