I'm sitting feeling rather sappy at the moment. I swear I have the most patient, loving boyfriend anyone could ever hope for, despite me not always being so deserving of his affection. He is always there and always wonderful. And I feel I have now what so many spend their lives searching for. It's a strange strange feeling, one I never quite ( Read more... )

So here I am, back again, after my somewhat inevitable breakdown. Now, all the things I desperately wanted to know and felt I was close to knowing and understanding are being brought into focus and I can breathe easy as I watch it happen - just have to learn some patience! Every time I look in the mirror I look more and more like myself, which is a ( Read more... )

No more madness. Rather, mindfulness. I am at peace on my own, in my own company. I have wanted to say that honestly for so long! Words are flowing from me without effort but only in discrete bursts for now. I will let it come. There is so so much to learn and my mind is beginning to take it in. Again, this is what I have wished for. The pieces are ( Read more... )

Martin's response the below post:

'Fucking hell, dude. Couldn't you just say he was a contrary bastard?'

Martin, you are so so right.

But my friend had travelled away from me, down a path, kept by a gate, locked by a password. He often looked back at me, but had lost his bearings and always turned the wrong way. In the forests around me were people with friendly faces, all I had to do was look through the trees and they'd bring me in. I wanted the key to the gate, though it was ( Read more... )

On the way home, everything suddenly held meaning, in a way everyday objects so seldom do. The red balloon in the window, bouncing on a current of unlikely air, finding fun where fun was none, occuping the spaces of the evening where nothing else could fall. The sodden newspaper, wet into the dirt of a street gone by, a day forgotten, the news so ( Read more... )

Well, it's been one heck of a year and thankfully, I do feel wiser. But wisdom always has a high cost and I've certainly had to relinquish a lot of energy, as well as a certain amount of freedom. That empty freedom only though, which comes from looking at potential and waiting, staring, keeping it as potential. There is no way I can hide any more ( Read more... )

So.. they're making me a consultant in October. I am to be miss qual perm practice. Which means I'll be placing qualified accountants into permanent positions in public practice and other professional services firms ( Read more... )

OK guys, here is a chance to shine!

I spent the last hour at work totally distracted by a link yaarg sent me: 6 word storiesSome of mine turned out more like headlines or catchphrases, but nevermind ( Read more... )

I got the room/flat I wanted! To share with two lovely girls in Bruntsfield. Move end of July. Yippee!